A Free Life

Epilogue

 Her hand rested softly in mine as we stared at the grave of my best friend. I hadn't been there in ages. Not since I left for college with James. It felt like the world had changed so much since 2015. Most people in the small town of Dusk forest had pushed her death to the back of their minds, but it was forever engraved in mine. May 27th, 2015 at 3:35 P.M. It was horrifying when Jesse was pushed out of the room and nurses rushed in. His face was white with horror and pain. At that moment in time I was so terrified that I ran down the hall because of the suspense. Not much later the news had come that she had passed.

"Mama?" i looked down at Ray. Her deep blue eyes stared back at me like I was the only one there. I had told her to stay with her father, but of course she refused.

"Yeah?" I kneeled down to her eye level so she could speak. Her small hands were playing with her blonde ponytail.

"Did you love Rebecca?" Her voice was filled with curiosity along with her eyes. I only nodded a response, begging the tears in my eyes to disappear. Ray smiled softly and wrapped her small arms around my neck. After ten years I thought I could handle coming back to her grave. I thought I could handle seeing where my best friend was lain. When Ray took her arms away she pointed at the tombstone beside Rebecca's. "Who's that?" I smiled a painful smile.

"Jesse. I didn't know him well, but he was Rebecca's boyfriend. He died a few months after her in a car crash." It hurt to even talk about Jesse. James was the one who suggested putting his grave next to hers. I didn't like it, but I obliged. I knew Rebecca would want to be close to someone she loved.

"Do you think they're up there happily in heaven?" My daughter's voice was hopeful as she pointed to the clear blue sky. I smiled and gathered her up in my arms. Her warm arms wrapped around my neck as I held her close. Somewhere deep inside of me I knew that Rebecca was safe, perhaps with that angel that James talked about too many times to count. Her copper colored hair and emerald green eyes. The voice that had taken him away from death. I could only hope she was safe with the angel.

I looked back at the two grave on last time. "I love you too." was engraved into the white stone. Her last words to Jesse. Her Last words held the hope in my heart that until the very end, even as she was drowning, she held onto a few things. I looked at the stones for a few more seconds, the light creating a shining rim around them. Her ice-blue eyes stared at me with joy and love. Her pale skin was fuller and glowing brightly. His hand intertwined with hers as they watched me. I could see their blue eyes glittering as they watched. I watched as they faded away with soft smiles on their faces. The smiles of love and peace. "Let's go home." I kissed the top of Ray's head, and headed towards the exit.

May 17th, 2015

Midnight

I'm Drowning.

Sinking.

Being swallowed by the darkness.

My lungs filling with water.

My vision wavering by the water.

Trying to remember all of my good memories.

They all end up turning into bad ones.

I can't stop it.

The worst part.

Is seeing every person,

Breathing

and they Don't notice

me drowning beside them.

A soul is a delicate thing. It's fragile like glass. It's clear and pure, but slowly it begins to darken. Some more than others. When I think of a soul I don't think of glass though. Glass can be see through so easily, and A soul is dark and murky. Some you can see and most are impassible. When I think of a soul, I think of a flower. Not a rose, not a tulip, but he plumeria's of hawaii. They are so delicate that one touch can destroy them. So beautiful that bugs try to eat away at it while it's growing. So colorful like people, and how everyone is different in someway. Not even the shadows will affect them in the same way.. They fall to the ground so easily, littering the ground, broken and alone. Shattering like glass.