Notice Me (Kellic) (boyxboy)

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Vic's POV:

"I love you," Kellin says kissing me. "I love you too Gorgeous," I grin. Kellin is so amazing. He's sweet and a piece of eye candy. I fell for him so quickly. I never knew I could fall for anyone that quick. I got another chance but I lied... I'm such a horrible person for lying but I did. He's gonna have to know no matter what. I've gotta tell him I'm actually not a virgin... I knew he'd get self conscious about it so I couldn't tell him. I've got to though. We're more serious now... he needs to know this. He needs to know everything.

Kellin's POV:

Vic's been distant. He won't look me in the eye, and it seems he's been avoiding me. What did I do?? Everything was fine until yesterday. "Vic?" I call him. "Yeah?" He ask. "What's wrong?" I ask. He sighs, which only made me worry more. Is he okay? Did I do something? Are we okay? "You're scaring me..." I trail off.

"I have something to admit to you..."

"What is it?" I ask walking up to him. He still couldn't look me in the eye. Is he cheating? Was he cheating? What's going on? My stomach started to deepen the longer the silence went on. "Look at me," I command. After he continued to look down, I cupped his face in my hands, and made him look at me. "What is it? What's going on?" I ask. "I'm sorry," he apologizes. "For what?" I ask sternly.

"I lied..." About what?!?! I looked at him, silently telling him to go on. "I'm actually not a virgin.. I lied to make you feel comfortable with me and so you wouldn't hold back anything and I'm sorry." He says. My heart sunk... I stepped away from him. I can't breathe.... He stepped towards me and I stepped back. Why couldn't he just tell me? "I'll uh... I'll give you space..." he says walking to the door. "I love you," he tells me. He waits in the door with hopeful eyes that I'd say it back but I couldn't bring myself to.

Vic sighs and shuts the door. Leaving me alone. Which is what I needed. I didn't want to be touched by him right now. I feel so sick... he lied to me about something serious like that! What if he caught something from someone and didn't tell me about it?! Maybe at that point he would've told me... right? I want to get my mind off this. I don't want to think this anymore.... I went into the living room and sat on the couch. I started to read attempting to get my mind off of Vic.

An hour passes and I can't seem to push the thought of Vic out of my head... What if whoever he slept with was better than me? What if they had a better body then me? I'm probably not good enough for him... of course I'm not. I'm not good enough for anyone. I felt my eyes burning tears threatening to spill, but I blinked them back and sighed. I shouldn't be crying over this. I'm a big boy. As I calmed myself down I heard the door open.

I knew it was just Vic so I didn't turn around instead I stared off into space. I tried to deafen his sounds, but I failed as I could hear footsteps heading for me. "Kellin?" His voice cracked the silence. Being stubborn, I didn't answer him instead I continued to just sit there staring at the curtain. "You're crying... I didn't want to make you cry..." Vic thinks out loud. Suddenly I felt the warm wetness of a tear on my cheek. I wiped it off quickly.

"At least look at me." No answer. I felt him take my hands, and he bends his knees becoming eye level with me. "Please?" He ask brokenly. My heart breaking at the sound of his voice, I give in looking him in his eyes, but still I say nothing. "I'm so sorry Kellin. This is the last time, I didn't mean to hurt you." Well you did. "I'll answer anything you want me to. Anything at all." I did have a question to ask.

"Who?" I give in more. "My old friend Karalyn. We trusted each other so much we made a promise to give it up to each other first when we were old enough so we wouldn't give it out to people that would just leave us. She was the first girl I kissed and I didn't like it very much but I went through with it anyways. She moved so we're not that close anymore, but yeah." He explained. Damn it was a girl. "When?"

"Second year in high school. After that though it was no one else I swear. I just watched a lot of videos to make sure I wouldn't hurt anyone." Vic said. I would ask if it were good but that would be stepping out of bounds. I looked to the floor.

"What are you thinking about? What were you crying about?" Vic asked.

I sigh, "I don't feel like I'm enough." That came out more broken then I intended it to. "Gorgeous, you're enough! Don't say that your not. She's got nothing on you! She made me realize I was gay. You're the first guy I ever had slept with." He admits. "You wanna know what else? You're also the first guy I've kissed, you're the first guy I've done anything with..." he trails off. "Is there anything else you have to admit to me?" Vic nods his head. "What is it?" I feel myself becoming more scared by the second.

"A month after you came here, and I was hanging with Austin and Oli," he starts. "Go on.."

"You jumped from a tree came over to me and touched my cheek lightly." My eyes widened and my heart started to race. I paused time there's no way he could've saw that! "H-ho-"

"I can do it too."