A Brutal Mate [COMPLETED]

Chapter 13: What Is And What Never Should Be

Sorry for the long wait, guys! Here's the long awaited chappy 13! I seriously loved reading all of the comments that you've left on the previous chapter! I think that my readers are torn between Tate/Payton/Kaius. 

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Chapter 13: What Is And What Never Should Be

Tate's POV

                I could faintly feel the mate bond between Payton and I. Every day, I feel it disappear little by little, every minute that she’s with Kaius. Every day, I feel my body start to weaken every time that I’m not near her. It makes my senses weaken, my mind weakens, and everything slows down. My wolf hates me so much he would rather die than be in my body. That just shows you how wretched I am. I didn’t want to admit it before, thinking that I was just tired and shit, but now, I think I am slowly dying.

I don’t want to tell my parents that I’m weakening every day. It’s better if I don’t say anything.  But then I felt guilt ride up in me, losing another child would just hurt them more. Maybe one of the twins would make a better Alpha than me, I should just let the death take over and it would be so much easier for everyone. My parents wouldn’t look at me with so much disappointment, the people that I bully won’t look at me anymore in fear, and Payton wouldn’t look at me with so much hate.

Hell, Brody should’ve been Alpha, if it wasn’t for his cancer. It was rare, for a werewolf to have cancer, but it happens when your wolf doesn’t accept your body. He died shortly after his first shift. I was 10 when he died, and his death hurt me hard. We were really close, he had my back and I had his I cursed the werewolf world because Brody had 100% werewolf blood and his wolf rejected him? I guess I channeled my hurt into putting hurt into others, so I couldn’t feel the hurt in my chest.

                When I saw Kaius getting into bed with her, I knew that I had to do the same. I had to cherish every moment that I had with her, to keep my wolf alive at least. A simple little touch from her soft skin can do wonders to me. A simple inhalation of her strawberry and chocolate scent can last me the night. I couldn’t fall asleep when I got into that bed. Kaius went to sleep almost immediately but I just laid there, thinking about things.

                I thought about the first time that I saw her in that lunch room. She’s been going to the same school as I for multiple years now and only now I’ve come to notice her. She never looked me in the eye nor was she ever around me to feel the mate bond. It was the eye contact; it’s always the eye contact. It was full of panic and fear when she saw that it was me. I was horrible back then, but I’d like to think that I was better than before.

                I thought about when I watched her fall onto the gym floor when she hit her head. I felt a moment of regret but it washed away quickly when I got over it. I felt like, that if I could just get her to hate me and fear me, she wouldn’t get attached and later on I’d lose her, like I lost Brody. God, I am such a stubborn old fart, that I put my own goddamn mate into the hospital. My pride and arrogance got the best of me, and look what it has cost me. It could’ve cost me happiness. It cost me, her.

                I thought about all of the bruises that were covering her skin. I let my hand roam her exposed stomach, her arms, and her legs. I cringed at the ones that I felt, they were the deepest of colors, knowing that they were the most painful ones. I bit my lip, my hand trailing to the back of her head, where there was little bump present that was from me. I tried to keep the tears in as I kissed the side of her head, mumbling how sorry I was.