The Fake Nerd

Chapter 25

Ava pov

I wring my hands the sweat making them clammy."I know James in the worse way possible and i assure you that if i don't leave while i can" I start my voice wavers slightly "He will only hurt you." The room quieted down there eyes watching me like a wild animal. "No, Ava you don't get to walk around this" Kendra feigns her body tense her eyes like fire.She stands from the couch barreling toward me. A harsh glare sits on her face as she stands mere inches from me. "The truth" She says her voice shaking, but not for tears for her anger. I feel tears burn into my eyes as i look to the ground for comfort. "Now Ava" Her tone leaving no room fro argument. I run my hand through my hair as it falls dully around my shoulders. "All you need to know is that i am James target not you" I try again keeping my voice from pleading with them to accept my anwser. "The truth Ava why why is James so obsessed with you" She ask her voice filled with anger. My chest grows hot with burning anger i look up at her eyes she flinches slightly at the pure hate in my mine, but doesn't back down. "You wanna know why" I ask my tone menacing."Yeah" She says willing her voice to have that edge. "I'm closer to James than you think" I standing from the couch getting right in her face. The fighter side of me becoming known. I felt cold and angry just a monster. "I'm James ex girl friend" I say cringing at the girlfriend part. The room becomes tense as Kendra's eyes change from anger to shock. "I am the idiot who dated James" I say making my voice stay strong as everything in me crumbled. I collapsed on the couch putting my hands in my head. The room stayed an eerie silence. "I met James when i was thirteen. My parents decided that they no longer wanted a daughter and kicked me out. I was in an alley when this guy comes out of nowhere and starts trying to rape me" I say my voice is light quiet somehow i don't really register i'm talking.  "I screamed and kicked, but it was no use. Then, when i thought all hope was lost this big bad boy comes out of nowhere and saves me" I try and push away the memories as my eyes sting with tears. Kendra stands limply in front of me. I put my face in my hands parting enough room for my mouth. "James took me in and cared for me a year later we were dating" I say hating myself. "Is it true that he hit you" Mason's voice rings out in the quiet room. I draw a shaky breath and look up. Mason eyes are focused solely on me, but they seem unfocused almost lost in his mind. "Yes" I say my voice barley above a whisper as i silent tear falls from my eye. "Everybody says that you remember the first of everything" I say shaking my head slightly "I wish i could forget the first time James hit me." No one talks as the silence takes over the room. "I will never forget it" I say letting what i had tried to keep buried resurface. 

Flashback

I sit in the bar stool my feet swinging off the ground. James will be home soon. I trace the tattoo on my arm smiling at the memory. He really is amazing. I'm so lucky that he found me. I hear the front door open and smile. He is home finally. I run toward the door and stop abruptly when i see him. He has a hard look on his face murderous even. I've never seen him like this. "James" I whisper my tone breathy and scared. His cold eyes turn to mine and i flinch. He looks dead. His footsteps stop toward me the floor creaking. Pure fear courses through me as back away. My back hits a wall and plaster myself against it. "It's all your fault" He says his tone fierce and malicious. "What" I ask my voice breaking slightly. "I lost a drug deal because of you" He yells his voice bouncing off the walls. I cringe and flinch trying to fold into myself. "James you're scaring me" I say my voice shaking and tears flowing out of my eyes. "Good" He growls. I whimper and he chuckles. I feel his fist hit my face stumbling me backwards as my eyes shoot open in shock. My cheek burns fire coursing through it. He glares at me and walks past me leaving me on the floor. He hit me. I rush up the stairs my tears staining my cheeks in droves. My cheek numb and yet burning. I swing open the white door to my room the gray walls once welcoming haunt me. I grab a black duffel bag and stuff my clothes in it. A knock comes on the door freezing me in my place. I grab the bag throwing it under my bed and walk to the door swiping some of the moisture from my cheeks. James stands there a solemn look on his face. "I'm sorry i just lost control it will never happen again i promise" He says his eyes dancing with tears and his voice broken. This is the boy i know. He is only 17 i'm sure it was an accident. I'm only 14 what do i know. He saved me. I wrap my arms around him not knowing i should have left when i had the chance.