The Things I Couldn't Say...[Editing]

The Things I Couldn't Say...

I was woken up by my phone ringing loudly and I sat up in bed. It was a phone call from my older sister, Suma. "What do you want?" I asked.

"Hyerin, I have great news!" Suma said excitedly. I sighed and checked the time. It was twelve in the afternoon. I had overslept.

"What's the 'great' news?" I said going to get something to drink.

"Jimin and Jungkook are coming back to Busan!" I couldn't believe what she was saying at first.

"You're saying that Jimin, my childhood best friend, is coming back to Busan?"

"That's what I said and don't forget about Jungkook. Didn't you have a huge crush on Jimin?"

I was so surprised, I hung up on Suma. Jimin was coming back? My childhood friend that I had a crush on since Junior Highschool. I wouldn't even call it a crush anymore but, I don't know if I would call it love either. Jungkook was the same age as me and he was a good friend. Jungkook has always been aware of my feelings for Jimin and I made him swear not to tell him. Then three years ago, Jungkook and Jimin debuted for a Kpop group in Seoul. There were five other members too. I was glad their talents were getting recognized. I had planned to tell Jimin my feelings before He left, but it all went downhill.

****FlashBack

On the way to the train station, Jimin, Jungkook, and I were completely silent. I couldn't imagine them being away for so long. We made it to the station and they announced that the train to Seoul would be leaving in five minutes. Jungkook was the first one to hug me. "Hyerin, are you gonna tell him?" Jungkook asked.

"I'll try...But I'm not sure I can," I said pulling away from the hug, "Make sure you stay healthy and call me at least once a month."

Jungkook nodded and picked up his bags. He gave me one last wave and entered the train. Jimin and I were alone. Jimin smiled and hugged me tightly. My heart throbbed as I hugged him back. It felt so good to be in his arms this way. I just wanted to be like this forever. "Take care of yourself while I'm gone," Jimin said still hugging me.

"Shouldn't I be saying that?" I said with a giggle. I suddenly remembered there was something important I had to tell him. I pulled away from the hug and squished his cheeks. "I have something really important to tell you." I took a deep breath preparing myself for my confession. Before I could speak the train made a loud sound. It was announced that the train would be leaving in the next minute. My plans were ruined. Jimin smiled at me and took my hand. "Just call me later," he said grabbing his bags. I nodded and he got into the train. He sat by the window and he waved at me as the train rode off. When the train was long gone, I walked home with a heavy heart. When I called Jimin, I didn't tell him my feelings and listened to how his day went.

**********Present

It was later in the day and I was going to the station. I couldn't help but wonder what they would look like now. I have watched their concerts and music videos. I've also been to a few concerts but, I haven't seen them up close in a while. Jimin and I usually text a lot and Jungkook calls me now and then. I was finally gonna be able to spend time with them and even tell Jimin my feelings after so long. Maybe he felt the same way. If he didn't, what would I do then? I didn't know at all but, it was time for me to take chances. I made it to the station and waited for the train to arrive. When it arrived, a crowd of people came out. I tried looking for them but it was crowded. I looked around one last time and saw Jungkook. He looked older and taller also a little more mature. I ran up to him and gave him the biggest hug ever.

"Hyerin? It's you," Jungkook said with a surprised look.

"You got so tall. What did they feed you?" I said backing up to take a look at him, "Anyways, where's Jimin?"

"He went to go get water. We should find him."

I followed Jungkook to the plaza. As we were looking for Jimin, Jungkook asked the most random question. "Do you still like him?"

"My feelings didn't change at all since you two left," I answered bashfully.

Jungkook sighed. He was probably fed up with me. I've been in love with the same guy since junior high and still haven't made a move now that we're adults. "You have to tell him. If you don't, he'll end up with someone else and you'll still be stuck with those feelings."

Jungkook was right. I had to muster up all of my courage and just tell him how I felt. It shouldn't be that hard, right?
We finally found Jimin and He was just as surprised to see me as I was to see him. He really matured since last time I saw him. He was even more handsome which made me speechless. "Hyerin, you look great," He said giving me a hug.

He was taller than me. Back before he left, we were the same height. Jimin was still short but, the fact that he was taller than me was surprising.

"Did you get taller?" I said jokingly, "I won't be able to call you shorty anymore."

"You're the only shorty here." Jimin ruffled my hair jokingly.

  "We should head home, everyone's gonna want to see you," I said leading them out of the station.

We got into my car and I drove home. The whole ride both of them were telling me what they did, where they went and about the other members. I was happy to hear that Jungkook opens up to people a little more. They also won quite a few awards with their Wings album. We made it to my house and my sister's car was parked in front of it. When we entered the house, Suma gave them a big hug.

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Later, Jimin and I dropped Jungkook off at home. We decided to go to the old park we hung out in when we were kids. We were both on the swings watching the sun set. The mood was perfect for my confession. I was about to say something but, Jimin began to speak. "I missed you a lot while I was away," he said swinging a little.

I was happy to hear that he missed me but, I wanted to hear that he was in love with me. It might have been too much to ask. "There's actually something I've been wanting to tell you," I said.

"Before you say that, I just want you to know that I'm glad you're my friend. You're like a little sister to me," He said with that warm smile.

Did he just say that I was like a sister to him? A little sister?!  I wasn't just friend zoned. I was sister zoned. I couldn't tell him how I felt now. He was gonna definitely turn me down.

"I was just gonna tell you that I have a boyfriend now," I lied biting my lip. Maybe, just maybe, he would get jealous.

Jimin looked surprised. "Really? Who is it?" His question caught me off guard.

"A-actually, it's Jungkook!"

I quickly covered my mouth when I said that. Jungkook wasn't gonna be happy about this. "Jungkook didn't say anything about dating you..."

"That's because he wanted me to tell you." I was beginning to feel bad for lying but, it was too late now. It seemed like Jimin fell for it, but he didn't look at all Jealous.

It was dark out and Jimin took me home. Standing at my front door, we both awkwardly looked at each other. "I hope Jungkook is taking good care of you," Jimin said breaking the silence.

I nodded and Jimin ruffled my hair like usual. He then turned to leave. Apart of me wanted to grab his arm and stop him. But another part me was afraid of what would happen. So, I just watched him leave. The day ended with me not being able to say the things I couldn't say before. Now Jungkook was my 'boyfriend'.  I was unsure of how tomorrow would go but, I had hope that I could explain everything to Jimin. Tomorrow was going to be a great day.