Close to heaven

Threatened

Our prime purpose in this life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them.~ Dalai Lama 

After my birthday everything seemed to be normal, or that's what I thought until two months passed by. At first, Matt and I were close. We would call each other every day, send text messages and talk on Facebook. We even had our own private jokes about music and other shit. We would sometimes kiss each other, sort of as if we were friends with benefits or had a situationship, but we would never go beyond second base, which was good cause I don't want my first time to be with someone I'm not dating. Anywho, everything started crumbling apart at the end of May. He started becoming more distant, there were no more calls, nor more messages and sometimes he wouldn't even say hi to me in school. At first, I didn't worry much about it because I knew boys had this thing that made them act as if they were in their period. But then I started to get worried. He was my only true best friend and I was losing him. Now we're in June. We have one more week until vacation. I wasn't sure what I was going to do without him on vacation. I could turn back to the boring girl who doesn't like to go out and stays home on holidays watching TV or on her phone and computer.   Yeah, I've always been pretty lame but every time we had holidays we would go out with Matt. We would go get ice cream, go to a cute little park close to the mountains and we would talk about life in general, not giving a damn about time. But that's over now. He's hanging out with Caleb, Tristen, and the rest more often. It was Friday and I didn't have anything else to do, we had finished P.E. early and I didn't have anything else to do. I walked where the buses were supposed to be parked and saw Matt throwing a cigarette on the ground and stepping on it so he could turn it off. He looked at me and gave a little smirk.

"hey gorgeous" he winked                              

"hi Matt" I rolled my eyes walking toward him

"Want some? " He showed me a box of cigarettes

I shook my head.

"I don't smoke" I responded

"One won't hurt you" he insisted

"Dude, you seem like be smoking something other than a simple cigarette" I confessed

"Me? ... Something else? ... How can you say that"

I looked into his reddish-colored eyes.

"oh my god, you are. I thought of crack because of your stupid attitude but I can see you're smoking marijuana. It's not good for you" 

"Weed. And I don't give a shit about it. It's not even bad. It helps out in so many things" 

"weed...Marijuana... same shit... it's not good for you. It's making you act like an idiot and you might even get yourself into bigger drugs... you're already changing your attitude because of it"

"I changed my attitude? What do you mean? I am the same Matthew I was before" he said.

I rolled my eyes and started walking away. I didn't want to be with him anymore. But before I could go I felt someone gripping my arm

"what the fuck do you want?!" I snapped

"I want you... I want a kiss" he smirked

He pulled me close and pressed his lips against mine. I tried to push him off but he just kept holding me tighter. I felt how his hands started roaming through my body all the way to my butt. My eyes got wide. I kicked him exactly on his balls. He let me go and fell to the ground

"What did you do bitch?"  He screamed

"Ass hole" I yelled

I got closer and stepped on him while he was still down.

"Now listen up you jerk hole... if you ever... EVER touch me again, I swear you not you're going to regret it for all your fucking life" I snapped while glaring. 

He grabbed my foot and made me fall he pulled me by the shirt and got me close to him, 3 inches away from his lips.

"Now you listen closely, I might be with Becky, but you got yourself into this. Now you are mine. My friend with benefit, per se, and you won't get rid of me that easily- he said and pressed his lips against mine one more time.

This time it felt worse because he pressed my breast touching me, and making me feel weak, invulnerable, and pissed. With all of my strength, I pushed him away and kneed him in the stomach. I started running to the bathroom where no one could see. Tears started to roll down my face. I heard someone was getting in so I cleaned myself up, washed my face, and acted as if nothing had happened. I walked outside and saw Marley, Klaus and Sasha together. Marley looked at me and yelled my name to go over. I just gave her a small smile and started walking away. Then she came running toward me

"What happened Tinker Bell," she asked with a sad face

I started to crack up and started crying. Sasha rolled her eyes and continued talking through her phone with her boyfriend while Klaus did a 'what the fuck just happened' sign with his hand. He walked over to us and sat next to me.

"Are you ok?" He asks

"He threatened me. I'm no longer safe" I replied crying on Marley's shoulder.

They stayed with me all day and Marley decided to sleep over at my place. Klaus left around five. He was the one who droves us but stayed for a while. As Klaus and Marley talked I decided to go to the bathroom. I looked at a little box filled with a toothbrush, toothpaste, and a razor. I took the razor and looked at it for a second

"Hello my old friend," I said to myself touching it. I started sliding it over my wrist. I could see the blood falling. it made me feel a bit better, I have to admit. I put it back down cleaned the bathroom and put a small cloth on my wrist and went out acting as if nothing ever happened... I was scared. I couldn't have another problem in my life.

~<3:D:AB