Close to heaven

Party time

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to, Cry if I want to. I'll cry until the candles burn down this place. I'll cry until my pity party's in flames- Melanie Martinez 

Finally, it was the last week of classes before winter break. It was Friday but school was going to finish early. I was in English, not feeling well. With all the 'Matt' problem from the other day, I was feeling a bit depressed. I was listening repeatedly to three songs that I would listen to when I was sad: 'Catch me when I fall 'by Ashlee Simpson, 'Don't go' by Bring me the Horizon, and 'it ends tonight' from the All-American Rejects. I saw Marley and Klaus coming over but I just ignored them. Even though they were trying to make me feel better, they wouldn't help at all. They would start playing together and fooling in front of my face as if I were the violinist of the group. I'd rather be alone than feel excluded from them.

"Hey" Marley smiled

"Happy birthday" I said softly with a fake grin. Fake because I just couldn't smile at that time

"Thanks beautiful" she said. She was about to add something but Sasha had called her so she left me alone with Klaus.

"What's wrong with you?" Klaus asked, noticing I wasn't ok

"nothing, I'm fine.... Totally fine" I replied lying

"I know you are lying"

"Don't want to talk about it" in a sharp tone. I stayed silent for a while but then looked at him and not really thinking about what I was going to say, words came out as vomit "and why do you care? I mean, you try to make me feel better but you don't. You always say you care but you don't. I don't think you guys see me as a true friend because as soon as you can. You ignore me as if I were a wall. Maybe Matt made me feel like a dumbass for trusting him, but before this, he was the only guy who made me feel special. He wouldn't ignore me. You guys simply treat me like crap and you... you... I can tell you don't see me as your friend so why do you care, huh? Please leave me alone."

I couldn't believe I had snapped at him. He just looked at me confused and went over to Marley. They didn't talk to me all day. But it was better that way because I wasn't really feeling in the mood to listen to them.

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School was over. It ended at twelve and I had time to get ready for my best friend's birthday party. It was a surprise party so I had to get ready and then take off to meet my cousin to get the party ready. I changed into a brown tank top and some skinny jeans. I put on a pair of vans and some makeup and headed to the ice cream shop where we were supposed to meet. I looked at my cousin in her boyfriend's car and then grabbed my bag and walked up to them.

"hey gorgeous" I smiled

"Hey Bella" Daisy replied "so the girls took Marley out, I think to drink, so we have like two hours before they come back. Her mom did almost all the decorating but she still needs help with a few more details. The guys are also coming early to help us, so we have time to prepare the house and i think we'll finish fastly- she then explained.

We went to pick some of my friends up in order to go to the party. As we went to Marley's house, we started listening to some songs from my friend. Her songs were shitty cause she only likes Cumbia and reggaeton. I was getting pretty irritated because I hated that music. I looked at my music and then at them.

"We should change the music to something better or at least to vary a bit" I recommended

"your music sucks, Bella. You only like Big Time Rush and The Wanted which sucks like stinky socks" Tina mocked making everyone laugh and make fun of me.