Close to heaven

The New Guy

 A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.-Elbert Hubbard 

The next day I got pretty sick so I decided not to go to school. I just rested the whole day trying not to worry much about school. I watched TV and read a chapter of my favorite book. But most of the day I slept.

Finally Wednesday, I hate Wednesdays, you have to wait two more days for the weekend, and well, I just hate waiting for the weekends. I woke up at seven, not feeling like going to school. I put on my clothes and ate my breakfast, brushed my teeth, grabbed my bag, and ran to the bus. As I got to school, I put on my headphones and started listening to sleeping with sirens. That band, I wouldn't say it saved me but I have to admit it would make my day by just listening to them.

I looked at my schedule and noticed I had Spanish first. I walked happily toward the class. I love Spanish because it consists mainly of just reading books. I'm kind of a book eater, so I love it.
I used to read a lot before, but I don't really do it anymore because...well... depression makes you lose interest in everything you like to do.  But I do read from time to time, mostly my favorite book Ghostgirl and I also like to read books with facts about life and how to deal with living as a teenager. I also try to read the books from my classes but when a book doesn't interest me, I just can't read it.

I entered the class and looked for Marley. She wasn't there, yet. I then looked for a place I could be comfortable. Somewhere I could say it's my spot. I took one of the front seats, close to the window. Then noticed that Klaus had sat next to me

"hey, Klaus" I smiled while fondling his hair, which made him frown a little.

"Hey Bellz, what's up? " He asked

"not much, as miserable as always" I replied not afraid to talk to him like that.

"Bella don't get me started. You know, I'm worried about you. You can't be depressed all day..." he started.

 
I would usually listen to him, but I was kind of tired of that same lame conversation that everyone had with me. the typical "I'm worried", "I care", and "you are special". dude, I get it I know you know I have depression, but I also know that people don't really give shit about me as they say they do and that all that they say is a total lie. I just nodded and looked at him like he was right and that I would try to get better.

"I mean it, Bella, seriously I know you think that people don't care about you..." he continued talking. I started to pay more attention to what he was saying, but obviously not trying to get that much into me because I would usually end up crying with that kind of talk.

Suddenly I noticed a new guy getting in, he looked at me and stared for a while. For some reason, I felt like I knew him.

"New guy just looked at me and stayed staring for a bit" I interrupted what Klaus was saying

"You weren't even paying attention to me, weren't you? " Klaus asked

"I was, I promise, I was" I replied being honest

"Yeah right, well, what was I saying?" he asked

"That you were worried and that I should try to look for help, I can't stay with depression all my life. And how after stormy weather there's a rainbow after it" I replied

"Well yeah, except for the whole stormy weather and rainbow, but yeah. I should've thought of that" he replied. I chuckled a little and then went and took a closer look at the new guy. He gave me a little smile and then went back to talking to the guys

"He just smiled" I whispered softly to Klaus

"Are you checking him out?" Klaus asked

"No, you know you are the only guy in my life" I joked then added, "just kidding, but no, I'm not, I feel like I know him, but don't know from where."

"Yeah right" Klaus looked at me as if I were lying

"It's true, but I just need some time to remember," I told him

"ok Bella, well I would say you saw him yesterday but you weren't even here. So let's take off that possibility," he said

"what? He was already here yesterday?"  I asked

"Well yeah, and his name is not a new guy, it's Matthew" Klaus corrected me

"Well I think I know Matthew, and it seems like he knows me, too" I responded. The teacher came in.

"take a sit" he shouted, and everyone took a sit, listening to him.

"I'm still mad at you for ignoring me" Klaus turned a little to tell me

"oh I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. How can I fix it?" I asked

"I don't know" he turned around a little mad. I then got an idea, I started scratching softly his head. Then I started doing some massages on him.  He put on this funny but cute weird face which made me giggle a bit.

The teacher started to explain how this year was going to turn out as every other teacher did. he also explained the books we were going to read, what book we should start looking for, and all. While I paid for what I did to Klaus I started drawing, a way not to get way distracted. Finally, the third period rang. I stop doing massages to Klaus after two long periods. Never doing it again. He got up and headed with his friends. My friends just left talking to the next class. I was alone, again. I grabbed all my papers and put them on top of my notebook. I grasped my backpack and as I was heading outside... boom.
~<3:D:AB

(kalus in pic->)