Truffle Butter

Morning Tears

Ashanti's POV

My eyes fluttered opened and I sat up from the bed. I ran my fingers through my hair and looked around. I let out a sigh and looked over to my right. I saw Louis sleeping peacefully. I smiled down at the sleeping boy and played with his fluffy hair.

I looked over to my left and I saw Harry looking up at me with a light smile. "Good morning baby girl." his hand was now on my bare leg. "Good morning daddy." I lied down with my head on his chest. his arm was wrapped around me and my arm was draped over his torso.

"Was last night alright sweetie?" he asked quietly. I thought a bout last night.

I'm not a virgin anymore.

I gave all of my innocence up to them. Everything that made me pure is now gone. I didn't really mind it though. Honestly I don't regret anything. It felt amazing.

With Harry and Louis there with me I felt one thousand times better. Louis helped me with so much.

I just wan- "Babe. Are you okay?" Harry looked at me with both of his hands on each side of shoulders.

I looked at him with a smile. "Yeah I'm fine. I was just thinking." I replied back to him reassuringly. "What were you thinking about?" he asked.

I sighed.

"Last night." I said to him. "Oh." he said with a smile. he kissed my forehead and asked "Well was last night okay?"

"It was amazing ." I smiled.

Louis sits up and rubs his eyes. He looks over at me and kisses my cheek. "Good morning baby doll." he chirps.

"morning daddy." I reply back to his happiness. Harry and Louis got up and I pulled the covers off my body. My legs felt a little weak.

"Daddy?" I look over at harry and he offered his hands. I place mine in his and I start to stand up but ended up on the floor.

"It's okay baby I'll pick you up. Louis can you run a bath please?" Harry asked. "On it!" His voice echoed for he was already in the bathroom.

Harry carried me into the large bathroom and placed me gently in the warm water. "The body wash might be a little cold honey." I slowly nodded and he started cleaning my body.

After my bath and cleaning myself up, I got dressed into some lacey underwear and bra with a large shirt that would cover my body down to my upper thigh. I had knee high socks and my hair was curled.

"Okay sweetie, Louis and I have to go out and get some things for a little bit stay here and be a good girl, If you need anything go to Liam or Niall, Understand?" Harry asked looking down at me.

"Yes, daddy." I smiled up at him and gave him a little peck on the cheek. "Thank you baby go give daddy some kisses." I only take a couple of steps to reach him. he kisses my lips and I kiss back. I started to pull away and he kisses my forehead.

"Be good." was the last thing Louis said and they were both gone. I quickly run back upstairs and into my room. I close the door and lock it. I sat down on my bed and started thinking about the things that I could possibly do.

I cant see kimmy since she is pregnant and on the 4th floor. I sighed and thought about visiting Justin. I got up from my bed and unlocked the door. I opened the door and started walking down the hall and to the elevator.

I pressed the elevator button and waited for the door to open. Once it did I stepped inside, I pressed the up button and the door closed. I hummed quietly to myself and the elevator beeped indicating that I was on the floor.

I walked out of the elevator and down the dark hall. I stopped in front of his door. I took a deep breath and knocked gently on the door. I heard some muffling and the door opened.

"Hey Ashanti." he smiled. I looked at messy haired Justin and smiled back at him.

"Hey uh how may I help you? Oh wait- Come in." he opened the door more for me to enter the office. I giggled and ran over to the spiny chair. Justin chuckled and closed the door. He was leaning on the closed door and crossed his arms across his torso.

"Well, I just wanted to come visit since kimmy is up in the fourth floor until her due date." I explained playing with some of the things on his desk. He thought about it for a moment. "Ah yes kimmy is pregnant." he rubbed his hand over his face.

I nodded and he smiled over at me. "Thank you for the visit I do appreciate it." He grinned and sat down in the chair on the opposite end of the desk.

"Can I ask a personal question?"

"Go for it."

"Do you ever miss home? Like family and stuff?"

"my home is here and you guys are my family." I frowned at his answer. He smiled knowing that that wasn't what I wanted to hear from him.

Justin's POV

I knew she was a very curious girl. I didn't mind telling her about what happened.

"Well, The only other family that I have is Vincent and my mom." I looked over at her and she stared at me with content. I continued. "I had just finished college. I got my masters in psychology and started looking for a professional job. When I saw that Louis was looking for someone in that path so I went for an interview."

Ashanti nodded for me to continue and I did. "All of a sudden my mom was acting differently towards me. She was being so distant. That's when I realized that she figured out what the boys were doing. Obviously I knew what the guys were doing. I agreed to take my role in the program. My mom wanted nothing to do with me." I shook my head as I felt the tears welling up in my eyes.

"Soon after she kicked Vincent out and he was living here. I haven't seen my mother since."

"Wow. I'm so sorry Justin." she looked at me with sympathy in her eyes. "Don't be sweetie. It happened a long time ago." I gave her a weak smile. I leaned closer to her and I let my lips lightly brush over hers.

"Jus-" I cut her off by kissing her soft lips. she was hesitant but after a couple of seconds she started to kiss me back. She was now sitting on the desk and I was in between her legs. "Justin we can-" I started to kiss her neck and started lifting up her shirt.

"Justin stop." she said.

I stopped. I had self control. I can control myself. I placed my head on her chest and closed my eyes.

Don't cry Justin.

She held me tight and that's just what I needed. "I-I should go." I lifted my head and moved away from her. She got off the desk and quickly walked over to the door. she opened it and paused. she let out a sigh and looked back slightly. "I'm sorry." she whispered. She gently closed the door and I let the tears fall.

I felt my throat clench. My heart ached. I sob escaped my lips. "I love her." I sobbed. I ran my fingers through my hair. I yelled out in anger as I threw everything that was on my desk a the wall.

"Why am I so fucking stupid?" I yelled and punched the wall. I let my back hit the wall and I slowly made my way to the floor. I brought my knees close to my chest and cried.

I cried because  I'm weak.

I cried because I cant have her.

I cried because she would never love me.