Insanity

I'll help you.

Credence POV

I was handing leaflets in the subway, I did this the whole afternoon. Only few people took them.
I was not really into it, to be honest, I wasn't doing anything to make people want to take these.

I was shy. I did not want to be in the middle of hundreds of people walking without thinking. I was scared. I had trouble breathing when there was too much people, I felt fear, my mouth went dry, my hands were tingling and I was sweating. It was kind of an illness because it would happens every time, in the worse cases I would have heart palpitations and would nearly faint. But Ma told me it was only the heat in the subway. Then I told her it also happened in the streets, when it's cold outside and she told me that I just was a bit shy and that :

"It should not stop you from doing what you have to. It's a duty you owe to your ancestors who fought against witches. We have to fight. All these recent events, they're not natural. It them. I'm sure. Keep handing those leaflets." She said in a cold tone, bringing out of my thoughts.

I said that I really couldn't breathe and that I'd continue to hand the leaflets in the streets.

I just wanted to go home. But I couldn't. It had been replaced by a new building. I could not go there anymore.
So instead, I would cry myself to sleep at Ma's house. This was not my home, she didn't make me feel like it. I know she hates me. Half as much as I hate myself though, but still, she hates me.

I went to a less crowded. I was looking forward my meeting with him. I didn't know his name, he didn't tell me. But he said he would help me. And I would accept any help. From anybody. I had nothing to lose.

Nobody took my leaflets. I put in trash the ones that were left.

Percival POV

"I have nothing to lose."

That's what I repeated to myself all this fucking afternoon. I do not have to tell Seraphina about my vision, I do not have to tell anybody about it. Just like I did not had to tell anyone about my past relationship, that finished gone with the wind.

How can you explain the loss of something that never happened ?
I can't.

As eight drew closer, I started to arrange all my things and prepare to go, but twenty minutes before eight, Seraphina asked to see me.

Couldn't she have chosen another day ?

Why was I so eager to meet the teen ? I wasn't even sure he would come. He looked so distressed... I wasn't  sure either if this Barebone bitch would let him go out. I secretly hoped he would not tell.

I went to Seraphina's office.

"Percival."

"Madam President." I said, trying to stay polite even if I took a glance at my watch, 20:05, I was already late.

"Oh please call me Seraphina, you always did." She smiled at me. We had been working together for almost 10 years, but we were never close, we just had a chief/employee relation, we known little of each other but I liked her, she was a nice and intelligent person.

She went back to a serious expression. "We have to do something about Miss Goldstein... She keeps interrupting us pointlessly, do I need to be more severe ? I don't know what to do... Why can't she understand that she's not an auror anymore ?" She sighed, shaking her head, crossing her arms and leaning on her desk.

"I think she just still has auror reflexes, and I understand that it's hard for her. Nonetheless we can't continue this way, we might just put an anti-Tina protection to this office ?"