Blade~{Kuroo x reader}

5

'what happening to me? ' You thought as you looked at your self in the mirror, seeing everything wrong with your body. The bruises on your legs and arm from practice, your stretch marks, everything you saw was making you hate yourself. I see why no one like me now.' was the thought going through your head at school. You stayed silent in all your class and at lunch, you just went up to the roof with out a meal or anything. You just stared at the sky, hugging your knees. no one was there, so you were peaceful. when the bell rang you went back to class with out a word and, of course, no one cared. Well in your mind that is, but what do you know. You looked up and saw Kuroo holding hands with a girl. You knew was typical but this time you felt hurt. 'Why? why this time?'

~Time skip~

The end of the day came and you decided not to go to the boys practice and instead walk with your friend, back home. You didnt want the team to ask you if you were okay or other questions Because you didnt want to answer with the same thing....... a lie. When you got home you just went straight up stairs with a simple "im home" and went to go do your homework. After that you took a shower and stayed up till midnight watch (anime of choose) but you keep hearing your phone go off, but you just dismissed it and keep watching.

(Kuroo)pov {wait a new point of view that not 3rd person. be happy}  

'where the hell is she?  she all ways watches us play and if she doesn't she at least tells me.' I guess I was a little worried about her. I mean give or take ,I think you would be worried too if your friend didn't show up to some thing they usually do.

"Hey kenma, have you seen (f/n) anywhere. She wasnt at practice so." I ask Kenma as we finished cleaning up.

"No, I havent seen her around." kenma answered in his monotoned voice.

"I saw her walking home with sophia, maybe she want feeling good,I mean she was quiet in class." Yuka butted in to the conversation.

I just looked at him and nodded and with that I texted her asking what happened, but no reply. It was true that she was really quiet in class and I didnt she her at lunch so I just hung with a few other girls and one took my hand and lead me to class when the bell rang. 

I tried to call her but no answer. 'was she mad? or is she busy with something or .....someone? ' I dont know why but when my mind went to 'someone' my heart started to hurt. When I got home I had dinner, took a shower and started to fall asleep till I remembered that I usually send her a picture on snapchat for our streak. So I did with me holding up a peace sign with the caption 'goodnight and hope your okay'. I sent it to her and she just sent me a black screen pic wit he caption 'streak' like it wasnt important. Which made me frown but soon I just fell asleep.

3rd person {again}

 "Again," You huffed as you woke up out of your nightmare, crying. You wanted to call Kuroo and talk to him but you didnt want to be a bother to him and it was 3 in the morning. You just laid back down, on your back and started to think. 'what is going on with me? why am i acting this way? i have never been the cold and closed out before. am i breaking down, i cant, like what sister did, i cant let that happen.' 

(flashback)

"BLAKE! HELP!" you screamed as you held your sister's lifeless body in your hands. blood everywhere,....she was ......gone.......forever.

(flashback end)

You cry at the memory. Your sister was acted closed out for a few months and that day she shot herself in the head after cutting everywhere. It was hard for you because you heard the gunshot and was the first to get to her room. You tried to go back to sleep but only got so rest for your eye's. 'is this what she felt like?'