Chasing The Sun

Brave

: s a m :

No one understands. Lilly sees my good side. Louis sees my bad side. Austin is blind with hate. No one sees me as a whole person. Maybe I'm not a whole person. I've always felt I'm missing something. I thought Lilly was that something.

I don't deserve Lilly. Austin doesn't either though.

" Open the fucking door Sam. " Louis yells for the third time.

" Just leave me alone. " I yell back, while he struggles to open the door I'm holding shut.

" I can't. We need to discuss this. " He yells, still trying furiously to open the door.

" There's nothing to discuss. " I say, letting go of the door.

" We need to discuss Lilly and what happened at St.Anthony's 2 months ago. " He glares at me.

" I'll tell you what happened. Sit down. " I say angrily as he steps inside and sits in a chair.

" Okay. So I went to see Lilly and apparently so did her asshole of an ex-boyfriend. I told him to leave and he pushed me up against a wall to strangle me and I got out of his grip and threw a vase at him and it instead hit Lilly. End of story. Get out of my apartment. " I open the door and he gets up and leaves.

" I'm not going to let this one go. Keep your filthy hands off of Lilly. " He says before running down the stairs and out to his car.

" I was going to say the same to you. " I mumble under my breath as I lock the door.

: l i l l y :

I had slept on a park bench. Too afraid of my 'act of bravery' but I didn't want to go back to Louis' place still a coward.

" It's now or never Lillian. " I say to myself.

I walk down 3 blocks. Pretending that I'm the brave girl I want to be. It's 6:00 in the morning so the sun isn't up yet. So it's fairly dark.

There's my apartment. I can see him through the window. That bastard. I wonder what he's done to my apartment. He isn't even supposed to be there. He wasn't even supposed to ever stay with me in the first place.

This is my act of bravery. It's my apartment and I want it back. So that's what I'll do. Get it back.

I run in and wave to the woman sitting on a bench inside the apartment building I go up the stairs and stand outside my apartment door. Here goes nothing.

I knock.

" Coming! " I hear Austin turn off music and run to the door.

He opens the door and looks shocked to see me here. I can't see why, but I could maybe say he thought I wasn't brave enough to ever come back.

" What are you doing here? " He asks.

" This is my apartment, is it not? " I say straightening up.

" Not anymore. I live here. " He says starting to close the door, but I put my foot in the way.

" Not anymore. I live here now. You have 2 hours to get the hell out of my apartment or I will contact the police. Goodbye Austin. " I say starting to walk away.

" But what if- "

" Hurry up Austin. " I cut him off and walk away. Not looking back. I'm done with him and he better get the hell out of my apartment.

: z a y n :

Shit.

It's 7:30 am. Lilly's going to be here in a half hour and I'm not even dressed. God damnit. I grab a pair of Louis' sweatpants that Perrie had oddly enough found out in a field. I still have them. It's all I have left of him. Other than memories and a broken heart.