Chasing The Sun

Goodbyes And Hellos

: l i l l y :

I'm slightly proud of myself for breaking up with Sam and resisting my own want to be with him. I still love him, but with what he has threatened to do to Zayn and Louis.. I can't bare to look at him anymore.

The worst part is I still have feelings for Austin. He still has feelings for me too, but all the names he's called me and all the things he's done. I don't know how I could take him back or even still love him.

What is wrong with me? Why am I like this? I'm sure there's no answer to that question anyway.

My thoughts are interrupted with the doorbell ringing.

I open the door a bit just to make sure it's not Sam.

" Lilly. I'm sorry about yesterday.. when I kissed you that is.. I just.. it was impulsive and immature of me.. I really don't want to mess up your relationship with Sam. I was out of line. " He says barely loud enough for me to hear. I has his head down, waiting for me to make a remark. I'm silent. Running over his words in my head.

" I didn't mind. " I blurt as my thoughts pour out my mouth.

" What? You didn't mind? " He says smiling and blushing as he lifts his head to look me in the eye.

" I mean.. I just.. well I.. " I have no explanation, being that the words out my mouth were true. It all goes in slow motion as I find myself in his arms grasping the collar of his coat as he kisses me and I know.. I know Austin is mine. He never left my heart even though he left my life. I always loved him and I still do.

" Austin. " I mutter, pulling out of the kiss.

" Yeah? " He says, smiling ear to ear as his face is a quite bright red.

" If you help me re-paint my apartment. You can stay with me and move out of Harry's flat. " I say and I know my cheeks are just as flushed as his.

" Okay. So we're back together or? " He asks nervously.

" We'll see about that one, you can sleep on the couch for a while. " I giggle and he waves good bye and runs down the stairs and out to his car.

I can't stop smiling.

: l o u i s :

" Okay sir. Bye. " I say as he steps out of the cab after giving me a small wave.

I round a corner and a young girl waves me over and gets in the cab.

" Hello. Can you get me to 865 Gormad Way? " She asks with a smile. She pulls some money out of her purse and hands it to me.

" Yes of course I can get you there. " I smile back, taking the money.

" I'm Allison by the way. " She says blushing. She obviously doesn't know I'm gay. I really don't want to explain that one to her though.

" I'm Louis. " I say flatly.

" Louis. That's a lovely name. " She coos.

" I'd hope so. Allison is a very nice name I'd say. " I try being polite and I see her smile widen.

" I like to sing. I'm actually headed to a competition right now. " She brags.

" Oh. That sounds like fun. I like to sing also. " I say.

" Really? Can you sing a bit for me? " She says truly excited. Apparently she's either blind or she doesn't know that you can't sing while you're driving. Well.. I can belt out a few notes for the gal while we're here.

" When you're happy like a fool let it take you over when everything is out you gotta take it in oh this had gotta be the good life this has gotta be the good life this could really be a good life good life I say oh got this feeling that I can't fight this city is on fire tonight this could really be a good life a good good life. " I sign a few verses from a OneRepublic song.