CACOPHONY | ✅

~06~

Its funny how we live in a big world. So may living things; people, animals, trees, insects, birds. Yet all out fates are different. Our time zones are different. We live under the same sun over the same earth yet in worlds completely different from each other.

And its funny how quickly time turns around. How quickly good times turn into bad. And hellos turn to goodbyes. How quickly fate can topple your world and everything in it upside down.

I'm looking outside my window watching cars speed by in the street. I watch the trees dance in their spots, their branches swaying in the light breeze. I watch the people smiling, laughing, frowning, talking, going to their everyday routine.

For them today would be a normal day. The world would be a normal place. A day they most probably wont remember next week, a place that wouldn't suffocate them all the time. But for me it is the complete opposite.

For me, today marks the worst day of my existance. For me, the world is a deep trench now.

My whole world just crashed to the ground here, burying me in the rubble somewhere.

But I don't think that's why I'm hurting so much. I don't think thats the reason behind the awful weight on my chest, crushing me down, breaking my bones.

Every fiber of my body is aching. The air is too heavy to inhale, and my lungs are clogged, and my heart can't beat fast enough under all this weight.

And I can't breathe.

I think I'm dying.

Or maybe I'm already dead.

Because despite everything, I'm no longer crying or panicking like yesteday.

I'm still.

Frozen.

Numb.