CACOPHONY | ✅

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Now that you're gone

And I'm all alone

I sit in my room

And feel all the pain

The throbbing heartaches

And the hitchy breaths

The stinging tears

And the headaches that follow

I sit and I remember

The times we had together

I sit and I wonder

How I'd ever get better

Without you

This painful weight on my chest

It's crushing me down

It's killed all my dreams

And shattered all the hopes

Excruciating, but I have to bear

This weight of your loss

Of your deprivation

Because deprived is all I am

Without you

Now black is my favourite colour

And pain my favourite flavor

I'm never thinking straight

And it's bringing down my grades

And I don't even care

I know I'm playing with my life

I'm against a bomb with a knife

I'm surely gonna lose

And it'll never get better

How could it ever

Without you

They say now i laugh more

They say that I'm brave

That I'm coping and managing

And catching up with life

They haven't seen my throbbing heart

Haven't seen my bleeding wounds

Haven't seen me whimpering in pain

Haven't seen me sobbing in sleep

Haven't seen me losing to life

Or dealing with my messedup head

On dreadfully dark nights

I struggle to breathe

And they say I'm okay

So I pretend like it

And I let them think

That my days are not longer

And my nights are not darker

That my dreams don't scare me

And your memories don't haunt me

Cause I knew from the start

This is how it was gonna be

Without you

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