eternity | vk

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i know that

when i am alone,

and when gloom hangs in the air,

and a blanket of fog glazes over my brain,

i start to wonder

when i shouldn't.

but

this time,

i'm feeling when i shouldn't,

and what i shouldn't.

it makes me want to

rip my hair out

and drown myself in the ocean

rather than my emotions,

and scream into the empty void

as i bathe in my tears

and watch helplessly as

everything crumples down

into a heap by my feet.

i don't want to fall out of love,

i don't,

but i'm screaming at my heart

and it doesn't seem to be listening.

(please.)