eternity | vk

twelve

my hand brushed over the top of yours

as the sun shone through the curtains,

and the billowing wind

grazed over my hair.

i saw you hesitate for a second,

and a bit of me broke.

maybe my pride

will get the better of me

and you'll never know,

but at that moment,

i really wanted to tell you

i love you.

and that

if you make me cry,

i trust you'll wipe my tears.

if you hurt me,

i'll bear it.

if you want me to leave,

i'll do it.

if you hate me,

i'll take all the blame.

is that what love is?

if it is,

then why is my heart hurting like this?

like a million needles,

like the sun's scorching heat,

like the pavement on a hot summer day.

and i'm pounding my fists,

begging and pleading,

but my heart

has closed its eyes

to everything.

(guide me.)