I think I'm getting bad again. Not as in like, "ooh. Badass." But as in cutting and suicide are the only things in my mind. It's really hard for me at school. It's hard for me to concentrate. It's hard for me to think. It's hard for me to do my work. When a teacher calls on me, I turn red and stutter. At times I'll be confident in myself and I'll raise my hand if i know the answer. Most of the time I do. I'm struggling in Spanish. I don't get anything. I just don't get it. I can't remember the stuff. It's annoying. School is super hard for me cuz cutting and suicide are on my mind a lot. Like a lot. It scares me. I scare me. I'm scared of what I'm capable of doing to myself. I'm scared of what I will do to myself. It's a struggle. Everything is a struggle. It's hard for me to get out of bed in the morning.
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Diary of a Cutter
AcakWarning: May be triggering. This is my story. My diary. I will update as often as I can.
