Letters to Will (on hold)

You and I

Does it make sense for someone to hate school, but get good grades? Honestly I cannot stand going to school, but I do it anyways. Being a straight A student doesn't just happen over night. Grades are the one thing I have going for me, maybe besides having Will. Senior year is supposed to be one of the best years of your life and mine is starting out with an essay. Yay! Who am I kidding? Like I really want to write an essay on some stupid topic that I don't even remember.

"Look at her, she's still fuming from Herbst class. You can see the gray hairs coming too."

I turn around from facing my locker when I see Will and his best friend Mike.

"I knew a smelled a rat. I don't know how I even thought it could have been a rat when you go here Michael."

"That's outrageous." He said as he put his hand on his heart like I actually hurt his feelings. "I don't smell like rat, I smell sexy. Wanna smell?"

"Oh please..."

Will cut me off, "That's enough Mike. Just because I can keep a girlfriend doesn't mean you get to hit on her all the time. And why on earth would she want to smell you when she has a man like me?"

That right there is one of the things I love about Will. He's not always so serious about everything, but he can get pretty serious when it comes to me. He may have been joking, but there was still a small hint of a threat saying, 'hey back off she's mine'.

"Actually, if you boys don't mind I would like to get some food and not smell either of you. Eating sounds more appetizing than to smell you guys." I couldn't help but to laugh as I walked away and towards the cafeteria to find Hazel. I looked around the room and didn't see her at our table, so I just got in line anyways. I was hungry and didn't feel like waiting any longer. I grabbed a bottle of water and then looked at our options for the day. Poison, toxins, mush or some more poison. My school didn't know what good or healthy food was. They even took away our chocolate milk because it had something like 8 grams more sugar than white milk did. So I just grabbed a salad and moved on to go sit down. I finally get to the table and take my seat when I get hit with someone's food. "Hey! Watch it!" People are so ridiculous these days.

"Watch what?" Hazel said sounding confused

"So you're the idiot that hit me then. That explains a lot."

"What are you talking about? I just sat down and didn't hit you with anything. If you hadn't noticed I don't exactly have anything to you hit you with..."

Well I guess it's safe to say it wasn't Hazel that hit me. It was my own boyfriend throwing food at me from a different table. "Will..." I couldn't even finish that thought because next thing I know I'm smacked in the face with a big glob of mashed potatoes. It didn't come from Will either. That only left one other person. "MICHAEL I AM GOING TO KILL YOU AND RIP YOUR GOD DAMN HEART OUT!"  I got up and walked over towards where he was standing frozen in his spot. I was ready to kill him and then he took off running outside.

"Trinity, don't do it. He's not worth it. Mike is stupid so let him stay stupid." Will said, "Come on let's just go eat. We were only having fun."

"Yes, because fun is having mashed potatoes on you from head to toe. Sounds fun to me William." I looked right at him and then had an idea. "Give me your milk."

"Why?"

"Just give me it." He finally gave me it and then I smiled at him. I poured half of it on him and then I saved the rest for someone special. "Don't hate me, I still love you." Before he could do anything else I took off running to go find the ass that threw food at me. And there he was, sitting under mine and Will's tree. I slowly walked up behind him and then dumped the rest of the milk on his head. "That's what you get for throwing food at me you douche."

"Awe come on Trin! I'm sorry! You messed up my hair and now I might as well smell like rat." He complained and that just made everything else better.

"Then don't mess with me again, or next time it'll be just more than your precious hair and manly stench."

"I..."

"Just go away Mike," Will laughed. "I'll take care of her."

"Like hell you will." I said

"That's my cue to leave. Bye guys, see you later."

Then just like that, he was gone.

"Like hell I will? Someone's feisty today."

"Do you want me to be calm? First day of SENIOR YEAR you guys act like a bunch of freshman boys." I was pretty mad about this. It's all over my face and my dress. The dress that I wore for Will today.

"I don't remember doing that on freshman year."

I threw up my hands in frustration and sighed. "That's besides the point. You guys got food all over me and my stupid dress that I wore for you."

"You wore that for me?"

"Yes, you told me how much you liked this dress on me. So I decided to wear it for you on our first day of school."

He paused for a second and thought about what he should say. He had that look on his face that said he was thinking about something. "You  want to tell me what's really going on here? I know something's up Trinity. I can tell and I'm sorry that our messing around got you upset."

I sighed, again. "Yeah I guess I've made up my mind now." I sat down and leaned on our tree for support. Will came and sat right next to me.

"I'm all ears." He said, with a warm smile on his face. "I promise I can handle it."

"The thing is Will, I don't know if I can handle it. I went to the doctor the other day and found out I have a brain tumor. It could take my life some day and I don't know if its even operable. I'm supposed to go see a surgeon sometime this week, but I'm so scared Will. I'm completely terrified." I started to cry and then he pulled me into his lap.

He soothed me before he said anything. "Why didn't you want to tell me? I'm assuming that's what you made up your mind about."

"I didn't want to lose you..."

Before I could finish he was already saying what I knew he would. "Trinity I would never leave you. Not in a million years."

"I know that, but listen to me first." I looked at him to see if he was going to say anything, but he didn't and waited for me to continue. "I was afraid you weren't going to be the Will I fell in love with. I thought you were going to change and worry about me all the time. That there wasn't going to be a 'Trinity and Will', but instead a 'frantic Will worrying about Trinity 24/7'. You have no idea how afraid I am of losing you Will Farrington. I just didn't want you to have a dead beat girlfriend who eventually dies and strung you along for her death." I let out a long breath and then sighed. It was a lot to say and it was a lot of scary things to say too. There was a bit of silence between us, but it wasn't awkward. He was taking in everything I just spilled out of my thoughts.

"I can see where this is all coming from. I completely understand you Trinity. I would be afraid too." He was looking right at me and that's when I saw the tears going down his face. He was crying. "You listen to me, we will get through this and we will do this together. I will be there every step of the way. Will make it through this as a team. You and I. Trinity and Will."

I looked at him long and hard. I didn't have to go through this alone. He was going to be there for me. I just hope that there will be a good ending to this. If not, I'll be leaving the love of my life with a broken heart. "As a team," I whispered.

"Yes, together and forever. You and I." He whispered back and then pulled me in for a kiss. We may have just been discussing the possibility of death, but that didn't mean anything. The way he kissed me made everything else disappear. The world, the pain and the future disappeared into the background as he kissed me. Fear was then replaced with  seven seconds of joy. Seven seconds.

I'm sorry for making people wait so long to read my story! I've been off of school a lot and we just got back into the swing of things this past week. It takes a toll on people mentally. So yes I have updated and I want everyone to go follow ray2000kim because she is absolutely amazing :). Happy reading and/or writing!

~J