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13

Caffeine
Unlike you, I'd rather be 13
Doing drugs and wishing to be 18
Because I was so childish and young
Confused and depressed
Doubtful and ignorant
I'm the one they need, but never want
I stole that quote
Like they stole my heart
In the most pessimistic way
Without strings
Just claws
I'm happy
I'm happy
I'm fine
And dandy
I forget my words sometimes
My mind is on caffeine
The roots of my mouth sticking to the straw of the cup
I can't wait to wake up and realize my sin
Telling lies and being a prick
Honestly my honesty can only carry out my burdens
I doubt my existence on caffeine
But I'm so heartbroken
I hate this
I hate everything
I'm tired and sullen
I can't cry
As hard as I try
When will I appreciate my happiness again?
It's like I sucked in some helium and it made my voice high while my brain felt even higher
I wanna forget
Yet I don't
Fuck
Am I alright?
I don't know sometimes.
I'm always sleeping
Or complaining
About sleeping too much.
Why