khnm oneshots

journal (6x4)

title: journal
pairing: Mutsumi x Shinomiya
word count: 1391
summary: Mu decides to write his feelings in a journal
warnings: none

Mutsumi sat underneath the blossoming cherry trees, reading his history novel with great thought. The sky was a fading blue, the dull clouds reflecting little light onto the pages, causing the boy to sometimes squint behind his glasses, trying to make out the ancient text in the book. It was a Friday after school, and Mu often liked to stick around for a while, walking aimlessly around campus and reading in the small garden in the back of the school.

"A-ah! Mutsumi-senpai?" a small voice squeaked.

Mu quickly looked up. Shinomiya stood there awkwardly, his petite face blushing profusely and his brown eyes widened with surprise.

"Hello Shinomiya-kun," Mu greeted politely and set his novel aside. "What are you doing here?"

"Uh... nothing! Well... I mean Serinuma-senpai said sometimes you read back here-oh wait! Ugh!" he groaned at himself and slouched down on the bench.

"Did you want to ask me something?"

"What? Oh! ...n-no!" Shinomiya shook his head, blushing.

"Oh.. okay." Mu smiled. Why is he here then? Mu said nothing, he liked the company anyway. He examined Shi's face. His light eyes were glossy and sparkling and his cheeks and nose a crimson red. He became flustered a lot, Mu noticed, and he was really clumsy, which was kind of adorable.

"You're very pretty," Mu said suddenly, still gazing at Shinomiya's delicate face. Mu's eyes widened when he realized what he had said. I sound creepy.

"O-o-oh? I-I am?" Shi choked out, "T-thank y-you very m-much!"

Mu's face felt hot. He looked down at his shoes sheepishly.

Shi cleared his throat, trying to think of things to say.

Mu never wanted to kiss anyone so badly. He glanced at Shi, who looked very flustered, and did nothing.

Shinomiya eventually said goodbye, and left. Mu felt empty. He really liked Shinomiya's company, even if he was awkward like today. He remembered his journal, and he had an urge to write.

He brought out his diary from his bag and began flipping through the flimsy pages, looking for a blank sheet to write on. With a small "aha!" in his mind, he opened the book to a clean page, straightening out the edges, and wrote down his worries.

月曜日 Shinomiya... The most beautiful boy I've ever met. I long to tell him my feelings, but it is a worthless statement. He seems to love another, and I am okay with that. I just want him to be happy. I love him very much.

and that was when... Mu began writing in his diary everyday.

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火曜日 Today I told Shinomiya that I loved him. I'm not sure he understood though, he said that I didn't understand what I was saying. That hurt me, but maybe its because I'm said to be clueless. I forgive him, like always. I love him anyways.

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水曜日 This morning, Serinuma-san asked me if I liked boys. I told her I liked everyone. She started screaming. Serinuma is a good friend, but she confuses me sometimes. How come she gets so excited when I just clarify I like all genders? That reminds me, I realize Kazuma and I both are pansexual. That's a strange coincidence. I should tell him soon, but he might do something bad, like force Shinomiya into loving me. You can't force love. But I do hope Shi loves me one day, and even if the days are weeks are months are years, I'll always love him.