The colour grey // phan

If I cried for you

"If I cried for you, nothing would get better. That's why I'm smiling for you Dan"
Phil said lovingly, while knowing it was cheesy, it was true.
It had been a week since they saw each other. Dan had to be kept in cancer care for a while, chemo and radiation being taken care of.
Dan had met a few friends there, they were both so close to death. It scared dan.

One of them was called Ivy. She had the palest skin, even paler now due to her cancer. She had a lightly freckled face and quite a feminine jawline. She had around a week to live, the doctors had estimated. Dan was sad about that. They'd share a room together when dan went back to cancer care for another week.

Dan would be there when Ivy died, it was a scarily painful thought.
How many more people did dan have to lose in his life?!
Phil was the only person he wouldn't survive without though. While dan was clingy to most people, he was clingier to phil.

They had gotten home and watched some attack on titan while eating creamy chocolate ice cream and cuddling. They shared a large bag of sour skittles as well.
"Phil?" Dan asked, while a death scene played on the large screen.
"Yeah?" Phil smiled cutely.
"Can I kiss you?" Dan pleaded. Looking up at his lips was exhilarating.
Phil didn't say anything and for a moment dan panicked and looked away in shame, but his face was caught by a large, warm hand and soon the two boys were kissing, as if they were kissing for the last time.

In the morning, when Phil woke up, he moved out from his side of the bed slowly and carefully, being careful not to wake his boyfriend up.
He walked into the lounge and rolled his eyes at himself when he saw he had forgotten to turn the glowing TV off last night.
Silly goose
Phil thought to himself, and somewhat chuckled at his own insult.

Phil plugged his really shitty toaster into the socket in the kitchen, put four slices of toast in and waited for a bit.
When the toaster popped, Phil had a heart attack. He had zoned out for a bit and was startled back into reality.
"SHED!" Phil nearly swore.

Dan groaned as he sat up. He could feel his hair sticking up in an uncomfortable way.
He lay back down and tried to sleep again...