Thoughts of a Mad heart

3rd BIV's: We have returned

I have a few checklist for this tournament. One that i am very happy about is that i was able to reach the semi-finals. From third to the last breaking team to fourth breaking team and a semi finalist. In reference to other checklists, sadly i was not able to achieve it.

Example, To reach the granfinals, or better yet to bring home the championship, next, for all of us, to recieve a best speaker award, and lastly to refine my whipping speech.

This tournament was a wake-up call. It made me realise things that i would never really would think about if i was not put on that position.

This frustation will be my spring board to bounce back and hopefully to represent UNC on the stage where the great debaters once stood.

Still along the way i forgot that even if i have my teamates or partners, its still a competition where you will have to compete alone againts your limits as a debater every time you hit a wall.

I have hit a wall. A wall called fear and too much complacency. Weird right? Why am I afraid if i am complacent? I am afraid that this complacency came from me being dependent to my partner and from the idea that i already recieve enough recognition. I know that this will be the cause of my stagnation and worst regression. I dont want that too happen.

RESOLVE: I'm not yet finish. I'm just starting. The curtain rises, The game's a foot. Its show time.

PS. To ruby (my partner whom showed me the height that i could reach if i really want it) : the times where you have to carry everything and everyone is over. I may not yet reach  you're level the same way you did. But  we will meet one day and i will carry the half of the team this time. Don't worry that's not far off now. I promise.