Love Is Like A Videogame (A SSOHPKC fanfic)

Chapter 9

REALLY REALLY sorry for the amount of time it took me to update this gahhh! I've just been super stressed out with school. Hope you enjoy it anyhow!!

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I was doing it. I was going to break up with James. I had to. It wasn't fair on him if I strung him along. Ash only had two days left and I wanted to do it before she got back or she would convince me not to. I had told James I was going to stop by his place but he didn't have a clue. I was nervous about doing it. He clearly really liked me and a part of me wanted to be with him because he's kind of a safe option. But I was 100% certain I had to do it when I got there. He had just finished recording and was editing, inviting me in and telling me to follow him into his bedroom so he could finish up. I sat down on his bed, my mind going crazy about what to tell him. I didn't want to just come out with "I don't love you, I love Seamus", I didn't even know if I wanted to tell he why I was going to break up with him, I just knew I had to do it. After thinking about it for a few minutes I finally spoke up.

"James?" At first he didn't turn around, being swallowed by his work load, "James!" He tilted his head back but I could tell his eyes were still on his computer. I sighed, I needed he complete attention, so I approached him from behind. I placed my hand on his shoulder and he finally turned to look at me.

"Sorry, I just was finishing this up," He turned the monitor screen off and followed me to sit on the bed, "Is something wrong?" I had to force myself to look him in the eyes but when he asked that I couldn't bare to. He intertwined our fingers but I pulled my hands away and nodded. I closed my eyes and prepared myself for what I was about to say.

"I'm really sorry James but I don't think this is working and it wouldn't be fair if I led you on for any longer." It was only then that I looked up at him. He looked so hurt and upset, and kind of confused.

"I don't understand? Have I done something wrong?" He asked like a worried child. I instantly shook my head. I didn't want him to blame himself in any kind of way. That would be horrible. It wasn't his fault that I fell for Seamus.

"No, you've been nothing but sweet and lovely but I just can't see us working out as anything more than friends. I really don't want to loose you as a friend James." He sighed and looked at his feet.

"Right," He sighed once again as he stood up, "Just friends...again." I felt seriously bad for him. I knew he got friendzoned quiet a lot and I gave him a chance but he had nothing on Seamus. I just didn't see them in the same way. I just sat there and watched as he got over the news but I knew me being there wouldn't help so I decided to leave.

"I'm going to go," I stood up and headed for the door but stopped to look back at him, "I'm really sorry James, I really am."

(Ten minutes later)

I knocked on Seamus' door and it took a while for me to get an answer and when I eventually did I was surprised by who I saw.

"Ava!" Ash squealed before pulling me into a massive hug. I had no clue why she was there two days early but from her attire I knew what had happened. She was only in a massive top and her hair was sticking out all over the place.

"Er hey. What are you doing back so early?" I tried my very best to sound at least a little happy but inside I was breaking. He was meant to breakup with her not sleep with her. I broke up with James for him. He didn't do the same.

"I got bored and I missed home!" She pulled me inside just as Seamus entered the lounge. His eyes bulged like balloons and all I did was shake my head.

"I missed this geek as well!" She rushed over to him and kissed him which sickened me. I really couldn't believe him. He may of looked sorry but that was no good to me at that point.

"So how's life? Anything new? How's you and James?" Ash attacked me with questions, causing me to move away slightly so she didn't burst my ear drums with her babbling.

"I broke up with James," I made sure to say it loud enough to snap Seamus out of his daze, "I'm beginning to regret it now though..." I got up as I said that and headed for the door. Ash looked more than confused as I left. I just couldn't be around them, him, after he failed to live up to his side of the deal. I slammed the door on the way out, not giving two shits about how he was going to explain it to her. Just as I got to the end of the hall I heard a door open.

"Ava, please stop!" He called, his footsteps fastening as mine did. I felt his hand around my arm, pulling me to a stop. I turned to look at him.

"No," I replied bluntly, " You told me you'd break up with her Seamus. Not sleep with her. I broke up with James, one of the sweetest guys I know, for you and you throw it back in my face." I hadn't realised how loud my voice had gotten until I saw an extremely upset looking Ash behind Seamus. Shit.