Sometimes I wonder why people even stay and listen to me and what I have to say.... Then again I wonder what I'm even doing. And right now, I am looking for myself out here in the dark.
And a lot of the time I ask myself "would they help me... Be there for me when I need it?"
I've been whiney and such a baby lately but... I'm just trying to save my soul from what may come to be. And I haven't told him what I truly have to say, but I will eventually.
And then there is those two.
They are my flashlight in the dark and my blanket on a cold night. Its so hard to explain, but I.... I don't know. I care so much about them and will always continue to but I cared so quick. It makes me so happy to seem them laugh and smile and I love being around them and I'm gonna call a few people out and tell them what I have to say... Okay, here goes.
DapperParrots you are an amazing guy, and i really care about you and you deserve the smiles I try to put onto your face, but sometimes I worry about you and I hope you know I truly care and even if I don't show it as much as you may hope or whatever the case may be, I'm here. I will be here to tighten your grip on sanity, and I will never give up until your just a little bit happier.
*sigh* this is hard....
TorrentRainbow
Now you.... You mean so much to me. And I just want to say, your not a third wheel. That wasn't the case last night and I'm sorry if you felt that way but that honestly wasn't the case. Me and dapper care so much and we hate to see you in a bad mood or sad mood. And sometimes we may stumble. Or cry or whatever the case but... In all the endings to come. We will still be here. I haven't felt this way about you... Or anyone in general before but you and dapper.... Gosh I could never exactly explain how I feel about you two.
I don't have much else to say.
I've been struggling with myself, and I just want to know... If you guys will always be there and continue to stay even if I am breaking down. It will mean a lot and I need you guys to be there. You two and some others are all I have left, and I need you guys.
Meh, I needed to let that out.
