Currently contemplating suicide. and if you even cared... i'm sorry. i just.... cant keep going because i have been falling apart because of things happening in my life.... and i just, need some time. either that or.... i dont know i just cant keep going because i am falling apart i've lost so much lately and as i sit staring at mys wrist of the the scars i have, it tempts me to do it again and as i let the blood trickle down my wrist i cry, and it just keeps on inside my brain. The constant thoughts and suicidal thoughts, i just..... all i hear in my head is "Do it. no one loves you" "You're worthless" and i listen, because the voices are right. no one cares. at least, not anymore and i dont want to keep living like this because nobody should have to live the way i do.... and i know i DONT have it the worst. i know i dont. i know i never will.... but this shit is difficult and i am so tired of turning and running away when i can just end it now. And sometimes i think to myself "why do i even try" because all that happens is bullshit.I am losing control. i just feel like i am not good enough and i know i am not.... half the people that cared dont even trust me anymore... so what the hell what does it matter? do you know exactly how easy it would be to just end it? how easy it would be to let go of all the pain and suffering i have? But i am so close to breaking and i am so tired of this stuff.... i just..... i am so sorry for everything i guess this is goodbye everyone. Farewell.
