Sometimes I get into this... "State of mind" i can't shake off, and its not exactly easy to explain and sometimes I wonder why or.. Or how it happens to me. For those of you that don't know what I am talking about, I can TRY to explain it.
Imagine being dipped in hot tar and dried Where you can't move a muscle cant breathe, suffocating as you take your few short breaths before you pass out. and every single muscle and bone in your body feels like they are melting. everything stings and hurts and then taking medicine that makes you hallucinate, seeing the maximum your piece of shit brain can handle. Having suicidal thoughts. Having urges to harm, to... To fade away.
I don't want to continue that... I began getting emotional.
Anyways, that's a little bit like what it feels like. You wouldn't fully understand unless you went through it yourself. But that's the best I can explain
