Over Atlantic

Again.

SEAN'S POV

I knew today was a bad day i could feel it the urge to hurt was there. its back and stronger then ever. i tried to ignore it but after a while i gave up. I was crying at this point

Sean= will i ever be normal

I got my blade out and cut so many times i lost count

Sean= oh my god what are th boys going to say

Sean= how the hell am i going to hide this

Sean= why wont it stop bleeding i need help like now

Sean= Trev..( i said in a weak voice)

Trevor=yer whats up (He walked into my room and stood there)

Sean= it wont stop it wont stop  Trevor

Trevor= OH my god SEAN

Trevor= sit on the bed stay there ( i could tell he was worried)

Sean= i fucked up again didnt i

Trevor= why Sean why this

TREVOR'S POV

I stood there in shock to see one of my best freind's arms cut open in a way that i would never want to see again

Sean= it just happend

Trevor=here put pressure on your arm ill go and get a bandage ( I gave him a towel to wrap around his wrist to stop the bleeding )

Sean= It hurts Trevor ( he was crying and i had no clue what the hell to do)

Trevor= hey hey calm okay it will be okay you just had a tiny mistake that's all it happens and we will get through it

I gave him a bandage to put on his arm

Trevor= I wish you would of talked to me about this

Sean= You had enough on your mind the nightmares and things

Trevor= I havent had a nightmare in 2 days Sean im okay.

Sean= I hate being like this Trev

Trevor= I know you do

Trevor= do you want a jumper?

Sean= yes please ( i gave him a black hoodie so if the cuts opened up it could not bleed through

Trevor= lay on the couch go to sleep the boys are back tonight

Sean= will you come with me please

Trevor= go on the big one there will be more space for us both there

he went on the big couch. i followed him leaving the mess in his bedroom for me to tidy up later.

Trevor= com here ( i sat on the couch and pulled him into a hug)

Sean= i-ii never wanted to go back like this ( he stuttered trying to get his words out

Trevor= stop trying to explain yourself and take a nap ill be right here when you wake up

Sean= the boys are going to hate me arent they?

Trevor= I dont know Sean I dont know what they will do

With that Sean stopped talking and all i thought about was how the hell I'm going to tell the lads what has just happened.

----------------A couple of hours later---------------

3RD PERSON

Sean was asleep. Trevor had just waken up. Liam,Gabe and Charlie where on their wayy home

TREVOR'S POV

I decided to text Liam

To Liam= will you guys be quiet when you come in the house Sean's asleep

From Liam= course be back soon everything okay

To Liam= tell you when you get here

I decided to move and go into the kitchen to wait until the rest of the boys where back

KNOCK KNOCK

Gabe= hey Trevor ( they all put their bags down next to the kitchen and took seats next to me

Charlie= so how did it go?

Liam= Trevor tell us whats happened

Trevor= This morning i woke up just like normal and i heard Sean calling me from his bedroom

Liam= like a normal person would do okay

Trevor= i walked in to find Sean he had.....

Gabe= dont even say the word

Trevor= go look in his bedroom i can't

LIAM'S POV

Me, Gabe and Charlie walked upstairs to find a horrible smell

Liam= what the hell is that smell

Gabe was already in his room

Gabe= guys i think we just found out

Liam= what is it that bad? ( i turned round to see blood on his bed on the floor everywhere)

Charlie= Oh my god

Gabe= he wasent lying

we all walked back down to the kitchen area with nothing but silence