I failed her, and I lost her... And I railed against her for leaving me.
And now, I see more clearly.
But my words continue to fail.
Each utterance causing her more pain. Each attempt to reconcile pushing her further away.
I don't want her to feel alone, i want her to feel my love.
I don't want her to be lonely, i want her to feel my love.
I don't want her to be angry, i want her to feel my love.
I don't want her to feel guilty, i want her to feel my love.
What words can i craft now? what phrasing can i conjure up? What poetry can i deliver that will do the right thing?
None, it seems...
Tiss to late for that.
Alas, the moment to demonstrate my love for her has passed and i have no choice but to burry my heart in self loathing and remourse and give up this mortal coil... For my body and my mind and my heart care not for any other would be lover. We know she was the One that i should have loved correctly and completely. She is the air i need and want to breath. She is the the only family i need and want to care for and build with. She is the one i should have lived for...
And knowing this, after having failed her so absoletely-
I am Content to sit in the silence of her absense, alone, and without any more romantic love.
I shall lay down my love-life as forfit and never love another woman again, content instead to sit in silence like a stone Buddha, in endless reverie of her soul, her mind, her visage, and sending her all that love i failed to give her in person.
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in reality, my love...
Puisia humble collection of whispered prayers to the Goddesses Muse "There is a world of worlds within Worlds, here among us, in this Nexus of story and imagination, and the community we co-create around it." ~The Writer, Prelude to Everything, Ch...
