the list | jacob sartorius [COMPLETED]

twelve

Emily

Wow. That's the only thing that comes to mind when I think about last night. Jacob touching me, a spot that's never been touched in that way before.

Half of me feels excited, maybe because little innocent girl Emily can actually say something has happened to her. Another part of me is disgusted with myself.

I would have never imagined I would do such a thing, with my parents right across the-

"Emily, sweetheart." My moms soft voice is heard on the other side of my bedroom door, interrupting me from my thoughts.

I look up from my phone, staring at the white door.

"Yes?" I call back. Instead of a reply, she opens the door, my full attention now on her.

"I wanted to come talk to you," She says shutting the door behind her.

Oh no, that's never good. I took a deep breath as my mom sits on the bed next to me, crossing her legs one over the other.

"What's wrong?" I ask. She softly laughs and shakes her head. "Nothing's wrong, Emily." She smiles.

"Since you have a boyfriend now, this is necessary." She looks directly into my eyes. I nod, feeling nervous.

"So-" I watch as she plays with the material of her blue jeans. "Wow, this is harder than I expected." She laughs again, this one sounding more nervous.

"Just tell me," I say impatiently.

"Have you and Jacob had sex?" She blurts out, causing my entire face to turn red and my eyes to go wide.

"Mom!" I say in shock.

"Answer me, Emily." She says sternly.

"No, we haven't!" I say in defense, crossing my arms. She sighs in relief and smiles.

"I've never technically told you how those things work," She speaks up again. The redness in my cheeks returns when she says this.

"I don't want to have this talk right now, mom." I roll my eyes and shake my head.

"Emily, this is important." She tucks a strand of hair behind her ear. "The circle of life." She says dramatically waving both of her hands in a circular motion.

I groan in response, not saying a word.

"Alright, well you need to know to be safe. Unprotected sex is a mistake many teenagers make." She says, making me cringe. Although, I am thanking the lord that this conversation is with my mom and not my dad.

"I know, mom." I say, clearly annoyed by now.

"And you need to make sure it's with someone special, you know your first time." She says. Instantly I think of Jacob and how many times he's must of done things. Although, I do really think he's special. I really like this boy.

"Okay," I say. She nods her head.

"Do you know what a condom is?" She asks. My eyes go wide again and I stand up from the bed.

"That's enough, mom." I hold both my hands out, helping her up from the bed. She crosses her arms and stands directly in front of me.

"Honey," She sighs. "You need to speak about it some day." She reminds me. I mean, of course I will have to, but I don't choose to right now.

"Mom, please get out." I whine, pointing towards the door. She softly shakes her head and walks towards the door.

"Are you sure you don't want to discuss th-" She begins to say.

"Mom, go." I cut her off. She nods and opens the door, stepping into the hallway.

I sigh when I shut the door and walk back to my bed.

"The circle of life, Emily!" I hear her yell from the hallway, followed by her soft laughs. I shake my head and lean back against the pillows.

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The next morning rolls around and the sound of my alarm fills the small bedroom. Today was Saturday, I didn't have anything planned at all, besides washing my mothers car for her. Pretty boring if you ask me.

I press snooze and sit up, rubbing both my eyes. I stay like this for awhile before getting the energy to get up from the bed.

I walk to the closet, looking through the different hangers. Since I was bound to get wet from the water hose, I might as well put on a bathing suit.

I continue to look through the multi-colored hangers until I find my old swimming suit from about two summers ago. It was a plain black one piece, that I'm sure was a little small by now.

I grab the bathing suit from the  hanger and walk into the bathroom, stripping from my pajamas.

Once finished changing I look into the mirror above the sink and notice how much my chest poked out in this swimming suit. I turn a bit and look over my shoulder, seeing the same issue with my backside.

You know, it's small, but it will get the job done. I put my long brown hair into a high ponytail and walk back into my bedroom.

My phone buzzes from my bedside table, getting increasingly louder. I hurry to the buzzing sound and press the home button, seeing it was just a message from AT&T. I roll my eyes, shaking my head and slip on my flip flops by my bedroom door.

"Morning, hun." My mom smiles as I walk down the hall and into the kitchen. I smile and grab my sunglasses that were on the coffee table.

"I'll be outside!" I call out before slamming the door behind me. The sun immediately hits my body, it feeling nice from the cold house.

I walk over the side of the house where the hose and turn it on, filling the bucket we always used. Luckily, everything I needed was already in the garage.

I walk down the driveway to my mom's white car, dragging the hose with me. Instantly when I spray water in the side of the car I see the sun glisten on the spot.

"Well don't you look nice," A voice says from behind me, causing my eyebrows to furrow in confusion.

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