Love @ First Sight

Afsha

It was hard to take in everything that was happening with me. It looked like nightmare. May be it was worst than nightmare becoz i was actually living it.

He almost killed me and all i did was holding my tears back staring at him blankly seeing my love openly hating me with so much passion.

What was my fault?

What was my fault?

I don't know. I wanted him to explain my fault but i just stayed quite.

Please have it. I said gesturing towards tiffin before walking out of the cabin.

As i came out of the cabin tears started purring down my cheeks. I ran out of the office unable to face any one. 

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I was sick due to all the cries i cried. But when he returned  home at mid night from office. He looked more lost than i was.

I was waiting for him and when he entered with his secretary jannath i rushed to him. I don't know why but i did it. Like he was magnet. Like some kind of magnetic energy pulled me towards him.

But,

Without even looking at me. He went inside his room banging the door shut.

I felt hurt filling in my heart but i let it go. My pain wasn't comparable to his pain. I smiled to gain some positivity from inside which i wasn't getting it anymore. I let out a breath i was holding.

I saw jannath chuckling at my state and again ignoring her i took Abheer's stuff .

I collected his files and there was also lunch tiffin which i gave him during lunch hour. Desperately i opened to check the tiffin. I was wishing for an empty tiffin but i found it as it was before i left. He didn't even touched the lunch.

I was never used to pain but in just two days of marriage i was living in pain which was breaking me apart. Momma dad and shahina they all gave me happiness. Never once i craved for love. Never once i slept crying. Never once i broke. But now it feels like I am surrounded by pain and only pain. there doesn't seem a ray of hope for happiness. Holding pain in my heart i walked inside his room. He was already in his snoring sleep. He hadn't changed his attire and his shoes was still on his foot.

I wiped my tears away. Making a way to him i bend myself down to unbutton his suit. He looked so cute while sleeping just like a child. After removing his shoe. I half covered him with comforter.

I  sat beside him for few minutes simply looking at his features. But when i saw him changing his sleeping positions i jumped from my position to couch.

Before i could stare him more i drift off to sleep.

When i was in deep sleep i heard some one screaming. Some one screaming in pain. No. That was not only screams. I heard some one crying. I struggled in my sleep to avoid those scream and cries but instead i snap my eyes open breathing heavily.

Was it dream?? An horrible dream. I asked myself wiping away my sweat which had formed on my forehead. But those voice wasn't stopping. Slowly slowly i got into my senses and i recognise that voice. It was Abheer.

It was Abheer who was crying and screaming in his sleep.

The room was all dark. I rushed to him. He was yelling. No. No. Please.

Abheer. I face palm him which was all wet due to his cries.

I shook him trying to wake him up.

Don't. Noooo. No. He was saying over and over again. His screams and cries was getting louder. I started sweating seeing him in such situation where he was pleading for something.

His hands was shaking terribly. I said his names several times. He didn't react. I was scared i was so scared that my voice died in throat.

Tears started threatening me. My mind stopped working. I wasn't understanding what was happening with him  so i just Hugged him.

I hugged him and it effected him. He went silent and wrapped his arms around me like he was scared of loosing some one. His grip was tighter and i feel safe.

Silence took over in entire room and all i was hearing his rapid heart beat and my breathings.

I slowly got up straightening myself and i saw Abheer slowly opening his eyes. When he opened his eyes and saw me sitting on his bed beside him with one hand on his chest and another hand in his hand. He jumped out of the bed like seeing me disgusted him.

Abheer. I said softly walking to him and he walked backward.

Stay away. He said gritting his teeth.

I - i was helping you Abheer. I said and than something happened everything turned into opposite. He started walking closer to me with anger in his eyes and i step backward fearing him to the depth.

I hesitantly walked backward where i realised i couldn't walk backward anymore when my back hit the wall stopping me to a particular point. I closed my eyes for a second before opening it again to see him just a few inches away from me.

You cant just simply barge to me. And mind it,  I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP. He said in his hard tone growling at me.

Why? I asked him still scared of him. But i needed to ask him even though i was freaking out under his dreadful stare.

Why the hell do you ask questions every time. You are nothing to me. He said harshly and made fist out of his hand punching on the wall behind me.

My breath hitch due to fear and i was unable to answer him back. He just simply turned himself to other side walking to the bed.

" I am your wife and i need to know my fault". I said finally finding my voice when he shifted his gaze to other side.

He immediately turned towards me raising his hand. I covered my face instantly scared that he would slap me but his hand was stiffed in the air.

Fear rushed through my body . I was waiting for him to punch me and i know if he can held my neck then slapping was more easy than that. But he fist his open hand and pulled it down suppressing his anger. 

"Move away and don't  ever try to mess with me" He warned me before rushing out of the bedroom.

He was right. I was nothing to him.

What did i do to deserve this???