Unlovable love (phan)

WHY ISNT HE HURTING ME?

Phil's POV
I get home from a long day at work and I opened the door to see my house but really clean. "Hello Dan? Are you here?" Dan came down the stairs technically running. "Hi! I've made your food and I've cleaned the house". I raised my hands to hug him and to say thanks and that he didn't need to do that but as I did that he flinched and moved away, like I was going to hit him? But I carried on to go and hug him anyway. Then all of the sudden Dan put him hands on his head like he was protecting himself from something, is it me? "Please don't hurt me!" At this point I pulled back my to my body and just stood there frozen. Why is he thinking I'm going to hurt him? Did he used to get hurt? Why would someone hurt him, he's so kind. All I want to do is hug him and tell him everything is going to be fine but I'm just frozen."Dan? Are you okay?" Why did you ask him that clearly not okay! Dan removed his hands form his face just stared at me.

Dan's POV
Why isn't he hitting me? Maybe he doesn't hit people? Wait! Why did he raise his hands then? It looked like he wanted to hug me, why would he want to hug me?! Oh no he's just staring at me, he must think I'm weird! What do I do? Then Phil put his hand on my face and wiped my tears off my face then just pulled me in for a hug. I just stood there frozen. "Everything's going to be okay." Phil said in a shaky voice. Was he crying? He is! No! I didn't mean to make him cry. Phil just carried on hugging me for at least another 2 minutes. "Did someone used to hurt you?" Phil said in a clearer voice. I felt like crying but I don't know if he likes me showing emotions around him so I just nodded. Then he pulled me in for another hug.

Phil's POV
He seems so broken. What horrible person would do this to someone? Dan told me everything about about his ex Tom... how can someone brake someone with much! I can feel his ribs when I'm hugging him, whys he so skinny? Does he eat? Well he did eat something at breakfast but that was ages ago. I don't want to let go of him.....ever. I grab his waist walked him to the living room and in there I saw one plate of food. Why's there only one plate of food? Has he already eaten his? "Where your food?" I asked in a confused voice. "Umm... I'm not hungry ". I know he might not be hungry but I want to see him eat, I'm kinda worried about him. "Why don't we get a take away?" "Sure?". I know he probably doesn't want to have a take away but I need to see him eat to trust him when he says that he's not hungry.

The take aways just came and I walk through the living room with it. Dans sat on the couch looking nervous. I don't want to make him feel nervous but I need to see him eat. I sat down with our take aways and handed him his. He said thanks and gave me a fake smile. He just sat there not doing anything. "Aren't you gunna eat?" " I'm not hungry." " dan.... I know you don't eat a lot and I don't know if it's just aren't hungry or your not eating but your really worrying me, before I could feel your ribs!"

Dan's POV
Shit what do I do? I don't want to eat because I'll be fat but if I don't Phil will be really worried about me! "I don't want to eat". "why?" Fuck it I'm just going to tell him. "Because I'll get fat" I said in a quiet voice. "What?" Phil said. " BECAUSE ILL GET FAT, AND IF I GET FAT THEN NO ONE WILL LIKE ME!" I said half crying. "You won't get fat! And I like you either way." I started crying. "Please eat Dan" Phil said in a calm voice. I'll only eat for Phil. Once I started to eat I could stop, it tasted to good! I finished my whole plate and sat there with Phil watching T.V.

Phil started to ask me questions about who was I hurt by and when, how, where...... the whole time I felt like crying but I made through it. I told Phil EVERYTHING I felt like I could trust him. At the end Phil just hugged me and cried. "Please don't cry." I said holding his hands. "It's that....I can't imagine someone hurting you! Your so nice and innocent. "

Phil's POV
After a while of me processing everything I asked Dan if he was tired. He looked it. He said yes and he said that he'll take the couch I tried to argue with him so he had the bed but he insisted. So I took the bed and he took the couch. When I got to bed I spent at least 1 hours going over everything that Dan told me, I finally got a sleep when I was woke up by a loud scream.........