Unlovable love (phan)

RAPE

He dragged me to our bed and pushed me on it. Then he jumped on the bed then pushed me onto my front, with that he pulled my pants and underwear down really ruffly. "Babe please, stop" I cried out. At this point i realised that I was crying as all the tears were rolling down my face and hitting the bed cover.

"IM ONLY GIVING YOU A LESSON, NOW STOP TALKING AND BE QUIET!" He screamed at me. So I did what I was told and I was quiet, but I couldn't stop tearing up because I knew what was going to come!

Then all of a sudden with no warning he stuck his erection in my entrance. "AAAAA"I screamed out. He didn't start slowly he went straight to fast. Because of all the blood rushing to my head everything started to go black....

Slow everything was fading, my Vision, the noise and the pain....

*everything went black*

*TIME SKIP*

I woke up with a horrible feeling in my backside. I was taking in my surrounding when I noticed Tom was to my side, I flinched because I thought he was awake. I calmed down and controlled my breathing after realising that he was asleep. I tried to get up but an instant pain shot up my spin! Did Tom carry on when I was passed out?I shook that thought out of my mind and tried to get up again but this time slowly. So with all my effort I sat up and walked to the kitchen to make tom breakfast.

I heard foot steps from the hall way so I guess Tom was awake. So I finished up his breakfast and put it on the table. As I finished making the bed and tidying our room and I went back to the living room to see that Tom already left for work. I know that I've been doing this for a year tomorrow but is this how relationships work? Should I always be afraid of him? Should I always be alone?

THAT IT! I'm leaving today! I can't deal with this anymore......