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Eleven - Paper Crane

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I curse under my breath and rummage through the box of tampons that I always leave behind the toilet. This cannot be happening to me! Halloween is in three days and my cycle usually lasts four to five. This is madness! I do my stuff with my tampon and switch my undies for a clean pair from the hamper in the hall. I decide to toss my jeans too, mies-well get comfortable before I get cramps. Hooray.

I remember the first time I got my period. It was January of seventh grade. I was thirteen years old. My friend, who was even more bloomed than I, started her period in sixth grade. I was in such denial that periods were even a thing, that I told her that she drank too much red Kool-aid and was peeing a little. I totally thought that I was right since she brought a water bottle of red Kool-aid to school every day for lunch. When I got my period, I was still in denial. I remember waking up in the middle of the night because I felt as if I had peed the bed. I felt my sheets and discovered that it was, indeed, wet. I immediately wondered whether or not I peed. But when I turned on the light and looked, my green sheets had turned a mixture of red and dried brown. I was in the blood. I practically ran to my mom's bedroom, panicked and terrified. I ushered her to my bedroom, where she looked at my reddish sheets. I took a shower, stripping myself of my bloody clothes, and as soon as I turned the water on, thick, clumpy blood gushed out of me. I thought that it could've been gallons, there was so much. I asked my mom what was happening to me, as she sat on the toilet seat, her eyes droopy and tired. She explained it all, periods and pads and cramps. Unfortunately, there weren't any pads in the house and no way was I going to stick a long cotton ball up my hoo-ha. So, I slumped around the house all day in a dog diaper. I laid down on the living room carpet and watched cartoons while my mom went to work for the day.

I also remember the first time I ever used a tampon. It was at least six months after I got my period and me, my mom, and one of her friends went camping for the weekend. I just so happened to start while we were in the middle of the campground. Mom went through the entire truck and tent, looking for a pad. Of course, since I have no luck what-so-ever, she could only find a few tampons. Mom sat me down and told me how to insert one, step by step. Shoot for your tailbone, don't be scared, it might hurt a little, don't sleep with it in, don't leave it in too long, blah blah blah. I was absolutely horrified at the thought of having something up my you-know-what, but I walked up to the bathrooms, chest puffed out. I sat in the stall for who knows how long, staring at the tampon. I eventually got the courage to put it in, and when I did I immediately felt weird. It didn't hurt, but I could feel it. I could actually feel it every time I moved. I put my pants back on and literally waddled back to our site, my feet spread at least a yard apart. I probably looked like a crab. I was petrified, thinking that my vagina was weird shaped or something, since it felt so bad. It hurt to sit down and so I stood for quite a while. I eventually figured out that I inserted the tampon, I put it in crooked. Now wonder it was so awkward.

So now, I lay on my bed, all spread out like a starfish. I've turned my TV on and am currently watching Ghost Facers.

(A/N I had to!)

No wonder I was so attracted to Jake, I've been pre-period horny! I groan and lay my head back against my pillow, looking up at the white ceiling. Suddenly, I feel overly exhausted and I stifle a yawn.

School tomorrow, Jake, Ana, Liam... I hate drama.

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Ana's little blue bug pulls up to the curb and I race outside, scooting past my parents in the kitchen without a sound. I have a fresh tampon on and baggy gray sweatpants with a maroon sweatshirt. I am in my 'I don't give a fuck' mood. As soon as I drop myself into the passenger seat, Ana frowns.