Mistake:now & Then

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84.Then

"If love is pain then honey let's hurt tonight"

.Feb 10th

Harry plops down beside me on the couch ,taking the remote from the table in front of us and changing the channel. He puts an arm around me and pulls me closer to him and I hesitantly snuggle against him.

I've been planning for some days now to break up with him cuz I know he deserves someone better than me. The only problem is I don't know what to say or how to start

"Is it okay that I changed - " Harry starts but I cut him off "its okay, I wasn't interested on the show "

What should I say? I have to do it fast before its to late.

The whole time that Harry is watching TV I try to gain some strength to tell him a lie which I planned on telling him . Finally he senses my odd behavior

"Are you okay pumpkin? You been quite for quite sometime" He turns his head a little but also keeping his attention on his favorite show . "I'm starting to get worried, Are you okay?"

Finally he turns fully to me. I try my very best to speak without crying

"Harry, I have to tell u something, let's say I have a problem . Yeah a problem " I stammer and turn my full attention to him

Harry turns the volume down. I have no idea how I'm gonna lie to him

"What is it pumpkin? Tell me. Tell me so I can help u to solve it " he begs with fear in his eyes

"There is no solution" I say looking at my lap and fighting the urge to cry

"Of course there is. Just tell me and I figure a way to solve it" he encourages

"Yes there is a solution but I'm afraid you won't like it" I tell him seriously. He becomes silent after that. I look up and see him breathing heavily with his eyes closed. Then he opens them to reveal so much of pain which will burst my emotions any minute

"Is it what I think it is?" He whispers

"I don't know what your think"

"Are you trying to break up with me? That's why ur distancing yourself from me?" He says with glossy eyes.

"I loved you so much Harry but its just-" he cuts me off "Just what Infinity ? Tell me . oh I know what it is. I should have expected this long time ago when I saw the news but I was a fool. Thought you loved me but the truth is just as the news read 'Singer Infinity Trevor is having a fling with Jade Cordon ' .You wanna break up with me because Money changed you and made you fall for him" He yells in frustration and stands up

The tears which I've been fighting wins over me and comes out.

"That's not true. I only loved you . I always did . I don't love anyone else. And money did not change me" I yell back and stand up

"Then tell me. Tell me why"

"You and me don't work anymore Harry. " I lie

"What do mean we don't work anymore ? Tell me so I can make it work" Harry urges me desperately

"There is nothing you can do to fix it Harry. Its just I don't feel the way I used to feel. My feelings just stopped. I don't know how or why. But when I look at you I feel nothing" I lie with all my strength and control my tears.