Mr. Personal Trainer (#The2017 Awards)

Peace Of My Mind

Hello everyone!!
Here our trainer saying Hiii!!
Dedicated to Anslet Astha..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR 🎂
HAVE A HEALTHY AND HAPPY LIFE AHEAD...

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The week that followed was the most difficult to deal with. After all, i had distanced myself from very people with whom i enjoyed spending time and shared so much of my life.

Through my body language, i had made evident to Arjun that i was only going to focus on my work-out. The poor guy noticed my changed behavior but coped with it..He twice reached out to me, asking me if i was all right. I responded by saying that some family issues had left me bothered. I didn't reveal to him what they were. I pulled myself away from him. He didn't push me hard to tell him either. I started miss him badly. He was the only solace of mine in this mortal world..But i knew that i had to do this..I couldn't make our lives more complicated just to complete my wish..just to have him in my life..That to be with him..we can't be together. We were terms apart..Two different worlds..And this thing killing me deep inside..

Sam and I didn't talk at all. it was difficult situation to bump into her in the gym and yet not talk. To avoid this uncomfortable situation, i rescheduled my session by two hours one day. The next day when i did not see her, i checked at the reception. I felt vaguely empty with her absence.

How had we arrived at this point!!

Later that day when i fainted in my room due to my agony. Sam came to visit me..And she asked me what troubling me ?? what happened to Arjun and me??

But i didn't answered her..I had fear that if she would thought that i am bad girl who was falling for her trainer being engaged to another guy..Like other people she too would think that i am unfaithful..And at some point my mind started to accuse her that she pushed me towards Arjun by telling me that he likes me..

How funny was it na!! We human always finds our way to defend ourselves by putting blame on others..Thats what my mind was doing...making Sam responsible..How absurd it was!!

I know it but still I was listening to my mind..

Arggghhhh!!! My mind was making me confused, irritated and frustrated with myself..and with my loved ones.

When i joined gym again after my recovery, she had waved at me from a distance..My response didn't match hers. Not even lifting my hand, i had just smile. And then the rest of the session, i kept avoiding eye contact . On two occasions when i saw her approaching me, i first faked a call on my cellphone and stepped out of the floor and the second time increased the speed of my treadmill. she got the hint.

Now, right this moment, siting in stream room alone made me think about all i was going through. Why?? Oh God, why this is happening to me??

Like the stream which blocked the light coming from the yellow bulb, destiny blocked happiness in my life..the very light of my life..MY Arjun..Hurting and avoiding him making me feel like thousands of glass pieces piercing my heart and chocking me to the death.

Someone pulled the door and stepped inside the stream room. I had guessed it right. It was Sam.

She sat opposite me. i had this feeling that she would initiate the a conversation, or at least attempt one..i wished one of us had not been here.

"What's wrong with you??" Sam finally asked when i didn't look at her even in the stream room.the stream in the room wasn't that dense and we could partially see each other.

I was in two minds.. One to fake it and avoid the conversation and to be honest and confessed to her about my feelings and get it out of my system. Some made me go for the conversation. i guess , i was already exhausted trying to avoid the conversation.