Mr. Personal Trainer (#The2017 Awards)

Clash Of Opinions!!

Hello Lovely people!!

I know I kept you on bay last time...and this is the next installment having emotional clash....

Happy Reading

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" I love you, Arjun!! I love you so very much " I wept over the phones as I talked to him in the dark room that morning.

His expressing that he loved me was so different from the way the world expresses love. It wasn't a proposal . it didn't have any expectations. It was a confession of true love that come along with a sacrifice... that he will walk out of my life!!

" Please don't say that!! Please don't go!!" I begged him

I suddenly realized that I was too loud . I feared my voice might go beyond my bedroom. So I got up and walked inside the attached bathroom. I switched on the light and saw my reflection in the mirror.

Tears left my face wet and swollen. The kajal from my eyes had streaked down and spread everywhere on my face and blended with the rest of the make-up. . All that had made me look beautiful till the night before made me look ugly now. My hair was undone. Strands of hair stuck to my cheeks. In that mirror, my face looked devastated. In that mirror, my life looked deserted.

While I behaved like a woman madly in love with a man who didn't know how to deal with such a heart-breaking situation. Arjun sounded composed. He acted maturely and tried to handle things in sensible way. This was the first time the two of us were openly expressing ourselves. Nothing was us back.

Arjun tried his best to comfort me..in that moment, I again needed him as my trainer who was going to provide me necessary support. And he was exactly doing the same—trying to calm down. This was first time also that I had cried this much badly in front of him., even though we were only connecting with our voices and our thoughts. I was miserable. He was sensible and it was getting difficult for him to stop me.

" Listen to me Radhika!! Get a hold on yourself..you can !! Don't let yourself break down. Pull yourself up and face this situation. You can do it, dear! You can do it!! " he tried to encourage me with his words.

I was out of control. It was as If being suppressed for so many years had burst a dam in me. And in that pathetic state, with my back against the wall , I screamed at him.

"I AM DONE LISTENING TO YOUR INSPIRATIONAL WORDS.STOP IT!!" Its not about training any more...its not about my body. THIS IS ABOUT MY LIFE. MY SOUL !! GOD DAMMIT..CAN'T YOU GET IT..I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU, ARJUN!! Don't leave me..DON'T GO ! SAY THAT YOU WON'T GO...SAY THAT..PLAESE!!

I slowly slid down against the wall. I was on my knees now. Leaning on the bath tub for support, I yelled and cried. What was happening to my life ? I had followed everything that I had ever been told, first by my family and then by my fiancé . I had never put myself or my wishes first.

When I had decided my life the way it was, things had begun to change. I had new life, friends, an identity away from everyone. I had found love!!

And now I couldn't be with one I loved..My first and Last Love!!

My nose had blocked due to all crying session and I was gasping for breath. I was trembling with emotions that were now overflowing through my eyes.

Arjun was still on the line and from what I could make out, very worried about me.

" I love you too, Radhika. I do ! And you know that well. I need you so badly in my life. But sweetheart!! Try to understand !! Love should bring happiness in our lives and not misery. It should not make our lives complicated . and in this case we will not put my life in jeopardy. Its' yours we are going to ruin. How do I do this to you?"