Imagines and Preferences

1D Preference - You try to commit

Niall: You were lying on your shared bed crying. Hundreds of twitter mentions that you should kill yourself. You bought the pills and you had everything ready. You shakily grabbed your phone and started to text Niall.

Heyyyy Babe, it's Y/N. I love you so much. Never forget that. Don't Worry Ni. You'll find somebody else and you are going to love her. Remember I love you Nialler. ~Princess

You heard his reply but you didn't read it. It would only stop you. You took a deep breath and took half the bottle of pills. You sat down and grabbed your phone waiting to die .

Princess!!! No! Please don't! I saw the tweets. I love you so much. I can't lose you Princess. Stay alive for me. ~Niall

You chuckled. He was too late. You closed your eyes and waited for darkness. You felt drownsy as you heard somebody rip open the door.

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You woke up in the hospital. You cursed silently. No. You were supposed to be dead. You looked over to see Blonde hair on the side of your bed. 

"Niall" You whispered. He groaned. 'Niall" you said a bit louder. His head popped up and he yawned.

"You're alive." He said quietly.  "You weren't a few days ago." He said. 

"Niall, I'm sorry." You said.

"No, I am sorry. My fans made you. It's my fault. Don't worry Princess, everything is going to be okay. I deleted your twitter." He said.

"Thanks Ni." 

Harry: You were sitting at the bus station. You wanted to just end it all. You had severe depression. You felt as if you had nothing to live for. Your boyfriend sent you to the streets when he found out. You looked at the passing cars, the beautiful tools you were using for your death. You heard the call that they buses were about to leave. You stepped up to the road. You saw a man in a hoodie exit one of the buses. When you saw one leave you lunged yourself into the road. You prepared to crash on a hard asphalt. Instead you were being held. 

"Whoa, what the hell?" You heard the man that was holding you say slowly. You struggled to get out of his grip.

"Let go, you ruined my suicide attempt." You snapped. You saw the man's face fall.

"Why would such a pretty girl ever do such a terrible thing?" He asked. He hugged you.

"Hey Stranger, getting a bit hansy." You said sacastically. 

"I'm Harry and I like tacos. Your name?" He asked.

"Y/N." You said.

"Hey, we're not strangers anymore. How about you come home with me and we can talk." He offered. 

"Sure, I guess." What did you have to lose?

"Yay!" He said hugging you again. Of course you were going with him if there was this much hugging involved. 

Zayn: You groaned. You had a huge headache. You opened your eyes to see Zayn leaning over you. He stood up and sighed in relief. 

"Zayn?" You asked. He looked.

"Whats wrong? Tell me what you need babe." He said.

"Can you tell me what happened?" You asked. He sighde but nodded. 

"Babe. You tried to kill yourself." He said. His voice shaky.

"Oh." You said remembering. 

" I found you in the bathroom. You were almost dead. I brought you here right away. You've been in a coma for about a week." He said. 

"Oh yeah." You said.

"Why did you do it baby?" He asked.

"Well, it isn't really easy being Zayn Malik's girlfriend. The stress got to me." You said quietly.

"I'm so sorry." He said.

"It's not your fault." You reassured him.

"It is. Y/N, I  love you and I ended up hurting you." He said. 

"Zaynie, I am going to be fine. There is nothing to worry about. Let's just enjoy being alive." You said. He smiled and hugged you.

Liam: You were on twitter. School bullied had been pressuring you to cut. Thats the thing you've never done it before. You decided to cut your veins. You probably weren't going to make it.  You decided to say your goodbyes on twitter. You first sent one to Liam Payne your celebrity crush.

 @Real_Liam_Payne I love you. I want you to know that you kept me strong. Strong until now. I am commiting and I just wanted to tell you I loved you. Thanks for being amazing. 

You sat on your bed with a razor blade. You were about to make a cut when your screen lit up on your phone. 

@YourTwitterName No. Please don't kill yourself. Stay alive for me. Stay alive for the boys. Stay alive for yourself. I love you. Please don't kill yourself. 

You dropped the razor in shock. He actually responded. He actually cared. Your heart skipped a beat. You checked your messages and saw his number. You couldn't beleive this.

You called his number.

"Hey." He said worried. "I can't talk right now. I'm terrifyed, There is girl trying to commit suicide." He said typing furiously. 

"Um.." You stuttered. "I'm that girl." you whispered. You heard the typing stop. 

"You're not going to do it right?" He asked.

"Well, no." You said. 

"That's wonderful to hear." He said sighing. "Love you babe." He said. You bit your lip.

"Well, I love you too Liam Payne." You said. 

"Woohoo. So I'm going to be in your area for the tour. Come to the concert." He said hanging up. You were blushing. 

Liam Payne said he loved you. 

Louis: You nice in toasty in your boyfriend's arms. It's been a week after your attempt. You snuggled your face into his neck. You felt safe. You pressed your nose to his collarbone. You felt good to be alive, To have somebody who loved you.

"Y/N." you heard him whine. "Your nose is cold." You chuckled. 

"I don't care Tomlinson." You said happily.

"Well aren't you Mrs. Sassy-Pants." He joked. He hugged you tighter and kissed your forehead. 

"I learned from the best." You said. He sighed and held you closer.

"I'm so glad you're alive." You heard him say under his breath.

"What was that?" you asked.

"Nothing." He said. You looked at him suspiciously. You finally just laid back down on his shoulder. 

"Love ya." You said 

"Love ya too." You replied.