Imagines and Preferences

Doctor Who Imagine - Eleventh Doctor

You had the life that people dreamed about. You were a companion of The Doctor. He was Marvelous. You two had been traveling together for a while now. But as the time passed you realized that the spring in his step was more bouncy and bubbly since he had known you. You loved that you caused that. You also accepted that he still loved Rose... And River. You also knew that he loved you in only a friendly way. But still, you loved being The Doctor's friend. You were sitting in the Tardis in your room. The Doctor was somewhere on a mission. He was upset because it was the first time you said that didn't want to help him on his mission. He just kinda frowned a bit and said that he would be back later. Before you met The Doctor you had depression. He helped you to be happy again and you loved him for that. You felt kinda bad for not going but you stayed anyway. You felt jealous. Jealous of Rose Tyler and River Song. You were stuck in the friend zone. Just like Martha...
You decided sitting on your bed to go back to your old habits. There was a bathroom connected to your room. The Doctor wasn't allowed in either of those rooms. His rules. You locked the door anyway. You looked for your razors you foolishly decided to keep. And with each insult you gave yourself you cut yourself. You didn't, no couldn't let him find out. He would make you stop and it would also kill him. You couldn't do that to him. When you were finished you cleaned your cuts and washed up. You rolled down your sleeve and walked out. When you did you saw that The Doctor was messing with his Tardis. When he saw you he smiled.
"Y/N!!! I missed you." He frowned. "Why didn't you want to come with me?" He asked.
"No reason, I was just tired." You said.
"Well I'm glad you rested up. Why on earth are you wearing long sleeves its boiling outside." He said.
"Well I'm cold." You said. He was not allowed to see what was underneath those sleeves.
"Well suit yourself then." He said pressing random buttons and pulling random levers. "We're going to Florida." He said with a grin. Oh shoot. You felt the Tardis land and you sighed. He grabbed your wrist and you flinched. "Oh, I'm sorry Y/N" he said when he saw your reaction. "What hurts?" He said taking your wrist. You yanked your hand back. He gently took your wrist again and rolled your sleeve up. He saw them. He saw all of them. "Oh my..." He muttered. He rolled the sleeve back down and pulled you into a hug. You felt warm by his touch. You hugged him back sighing.
"Doctor, I'm sorry." You said. He just stood there hugging you. When he stopped he looked you in the face and frowned.
"Y/N. You can't do this and I won't let you. You don't realize how important you are. Or how important you are to me." He said.
"But what about Rose and River? You have only two hearts. One for each and where does that leave me? Doctor, its okay you can just tell me to leave. I won't mind." You said your voice cracking. He looked shocked.
"But I love you too, I love all of my companions and all of them are special. Just because I loved Rose and River doesn't mean that there isn't enough room for you. You are extremely loved by me Y/F/N Y/L/N." he said. You smiled a bit and looked down.
"Well I love you too Doctor." You said.