Series Of Poems And Free-Write

Giving up

I felt the rope around my neck

I felt the pills down my throat

I felt the blade to my skin

and I miss it all!

I don't remember what a real smile looks like

I don't remember what happiness is 

I don't remember any good memories

I wish I could though.

I have the scars

I have the nightmares

I have the pain

But I don't have the hope

I can't be strong

I can't keep moving on

I can't say all the lies,

But I am sorry and at least I tried..