Series Of Poems And Free-Write

Time to Live

Please
Please stop
She heard it all before
She knows what happens
She knows what you want
It doesnt matter what you say or do
She cant trust anyone.
She tries to open up, and when she does.. she regrets it
She wont let her wounds heals, the pain helps to keep the reminder of what you can do to her.
She constantly surrounds herself with darkess, because the light only leads to her betrayel.
She is sorry that she makes these promises she cant keep, but she has to protect herself.
She has to keep herself alive; even if it means she is only surviving and no longer living.
but the thing is.. I want to live.
I dont want to look in the mirror and not know who I am looking at.
I want to smile and have the warm feeling overcome me.
I want to take a step out and be showered by the light.
I want someone to get to know me, even the darkness that comes with.
She did everything she had to do to survive.
I am proud of that. I am proud of who I was, and proud of what I had to do to keep my head above the water.
Now it's time to let her go.
Im scared, because she kept kept me alive.
I want to thank her for that, but it's time.
So I'm getting up, and Im knocking down that wall I kept built around me for so long.
It's not going to be easy, but I have people on the other side who have been trying to help me.
So once again
Please
Please dont stop
because this time I know.
I know what happens
I know what you want
Thank you for everything you said and did.
Im learning to trust again.
It will take time for me to open up.
My wounds are healing, and Im okay with the scars.
I will always have the darkness around, but I wont stop the light from coming in.
I will only make promises I can keep.
This time im not just surviving, I going to make sure I live.
So one last time
Please
Please let me live.
-Bailey G