Series Of Poems And Free-Write

I'm Fine

I understand that you want me to be okay.
I really do get that, but in reality it won't happen.
I don't want you to worry.
I did this to myself.

You always tell me I don't deserve this pain, but you don't know me.
You have no idea what I've done.
Let's face it, everybody judges.
I really dont want that.

You can say I lie, because I never tell the full truth.
Maybe I like keeping secrets.
That's why people find me so interesting; at first.
They eventually leave though, because like said "I KEEP my secrets".

It's hard to get close to people that way.
You have to trust the people close to you in order to keep them around.
To earn trust, you must give some.
That's where I fall short.

If I told the people I love about any of that, I'm afraid they will leave.
It's really dark and heavy in this mind of mine.
Not everyone can handle that.
Some days I'm not sure if I can.

That's where YOU fail to understand.
You try to protect me from harm, but what if I need protection from myself.
So once again, don't worry.
I'll be fine.
-Bailey G