Series Of Poems And Free-Write

What I Could Not See

  I did not believe love was possible, same with happiness. I always saw the bad in everything, because that was how things were in my life. Every good memory was lost in my pain. Realizing I cry myself to sleep because of the horror I saw everyday. That's when you came along. I didn't know what to do. I felt a light spark up inside me. I couldn't admit it though. I couldn't let myself believe so. I pushed you away, I did everything to keep you out. Yet, you just wouldn't give up. so, I started to give in. That's when I found this wonderful thing, not just happiness and love.. but hope. Yes, I still pushed away because I also found fear. I feared that this could be fake.. lies.. I couldn't let it happen. We tried, but I still kept a distance. Look though, I still fell into your arms when I needed someone. I laughed and smiled like life was good, but then darkness came. I pushed away again. It took till now to admit the i love you dearly. My heart belongs to you. I cannot let you leave me, and I will not push away. This time I don't want to be afraid. I want to love and to be loved. I cannot just let this memory fade. I want it to be my future. You made me see the good in life, and I needed that. The question is though.." Are you willing to let me in again?"