Series Of Poems And Free-Write

Anxiety

Why can't I breathe? WHY CAN'T I BREATHE!
Help me please. I beg you to help me.
Why isn't anyone trying to help me.
Can they not hear me?
What's going on?
I just want someone to help me.
They don't see it though.
They don't see that I'm suffering.
To them I look fine, I always look fine.
It's not true though.
My chest hurts, I'm trying to gasp for air.
I'm scratching at my hands, it's starting to bleed.
How long have I've been doing this!
My chest tightens, making it near impossible to take a breath.
My hand starts to shake, and I'm seeing spots.
Why doesn't anyone see that I'm struggling!
It's quite...
I dont hear anything anymore
It's getting harder to focus.
Everything starting to blur.
Please can someone just help me.
Shapes.... It's harder to make out shapes
Have I took a breath yet?
Why does it feel like something is sitting on my chest?
I try to take a step, but it's hard to keep my balance.
I'm shaking. Im scratching.
I'm light headed, Im dizzy.
Help me. please.
Thumping, all I hear is thumping. It's so loud in my ears.
It's so bright. All I see is white.
NOTHING
I see nothing
I hear nothing
I feel nothing.
I'm scared.
What happened?
Is anyone there?
Can anyone help me please?
I think im lost.
I'm not sure what to do, or if there anything I can do.
There it is again, that bright white light.
Then it suddenly all comes back.
My body consumed in pain,
Noise loud in my ears.
I see them surrounded me
Now I wish they didn't see me
I wish they would ignored me like before.
They don't understand.
It's not me, just the anxiety.
-Bailey G