Series Of Poems And Free-Write

Voices

All I hear is laughter, that keeps getting louder. It was making my head hurt. I just wanted it to stop. I was just standing there with my hands on my head and my eyes closed tight. The laughter was so loud it was making my ears ring and my head pound. My heart my racing. That's when i felt a hand grab my shoulder, and everything suddenly went quiet. I open my eyes to see my friend standing there looking at my confused. I looked around to see everyone just walking by. No one even noticed me. I looked back at my friend and smiled at her. We faded into the crowd.  We were just walking by and noticing no one.
We went to class and sat down waiting for the teacher to give us the instructions for the day. He handed out worksheet telling us to study for the upcoming test. He was walking around the classroom to see if anyone needed help. When he reached my desk he stopped. I started to shake a little bit. He was yelling at me. H was telling me how I could never accomplish anything, but when I look up he was just smiling at me. He told me that if I needed any help, that I could ask him.  He continues walking around the classroom, and talked to whoever needed him.
tab. I took out my notes and started on my worksheet. Everyone was sitting down with their friends to work on the worksheet. I look up to see someone staring at me. i started to hear him laugh at me. He was making jokes about me to his friends. That's when they all started to.laugh me me. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, and when I open them again they were all quietly doing their work.
After the bell rang for school to be out, I got on the bus. People behind me were whispering. They were calling me a freak because of my hair and piercings. I felt this horrible pain in my chest. I turned around to see them reading a book. They smiled at me and asked if I read the book. I smiled back and told them no. I turned back around and waited for my stop.
When I got home I went to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror. I started to yell at myself, and making joke about the way I looked.  That’s when I started laughing at myself. I took out my piercing and grabbed the box of hair dye.  Tears were streaming down my face. All those voices I was hearing were mine