The Hybrid's Sons

Chapter Three

No one bothered me for the rest of the day, well besides Laney who tried breaking into my room to bother me, she left me alone after she had been knocking for a few minutes. Realizing that I wasn't going to let her in to terrorize me.

It's about dinner time now, I had skipped lunch hoping that no one would call me down - no one did, thank goodness - and I was hoping that I would once again be forgotten about. I was extremely full from breakfast still, which isn't a good thing since I'm a shifter, and we are suppose to eat a lot of food. I guess I'm just that much more different then everyone else.

I mean, who in there right mind, is in love with their brother? I've never heard of one shifter getting married to a family member. It's not right. People will look down upon me if I say anything, and i can't tell Finn about my feelings because he will no doubt hate me more then he already does. I don't even know what I did to push him away from me, but I did something because he wouldn't be seen in a room with me unless our parents forced us to. I don't know how we drifted apart.

We use to do everything together, until Kayli came around. She ruined everything for us, we fixed some of our problems, but apparently they weren't really fixed since he is ignoring me again.

I look at my drawing that I had finished today. I had been working on it for the past week or so, I'm in secret, like all my other pictures. I don't want anyone to see the pathetic pictures I draw of Zambian and Finn's lion, Mavian together. Everyone would think I'm desperate if they saw the pictures I draw.

Most of them I don't really know what they are going to look like until I'm about halfway done with them. A few of them are pictures of just both of us in our shifts, laying down together, a few of us in our human forms, sitting together, cuddled up. I try and draw our faces, but I never can. I never know what to draw, because I've never experienced love before this, no one has looked at me with love in their eyes before, so I don't know how to draw it.

Once I sat in the bathroom for half an hour, looking at my eyes as I thought of Finn. I remembered all the times that we had fun together, all the times that I thought I might have a chance with him. I tried to draw what my eyes looked like in the pictures, but it never seemed quite right. That was one of the last times I ever spoke to Zambian.

Lately, Zambian has been pulling away from me. I know it has to do with Finn and Mavian, but every time I ask him about it, he ignores me. All I have heard for the past few months, has been silence.

The worst is when I sit awake at night. I use to talk to Zambian all the time before I went to sleep. We would talk about the day, what we thought it was funny, or if we remembered something that we needed to do the next day. I remember all the jokes we would tell eachother. We were best friends, but slowly our relationship is falling away much like mine and Finn's is, almost as if he is the reason Zambian won't talk to me.

I feel alone at times. With Zambian by my side I could quench some of the loneliness that wanted to consume me, but now that he is gone. I'm afraid that I really am all alone.