Chapter 20

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The two lovers fell into deep sleep into each other's arms. Amerá had wondered if this is what it would be like everyday if she was with Harris, but inside she was crashing down from guilt knowing Zayn is clueless as to her and Harris being in love.

Amerá•

"Amerá get up right now!" Someone shouted I grown and sink back into Harris's chest

"You two are fucking kidding me! Get up Zayn is here!" I recognized the voice it was Zara

Me and Harris shot up

"What do you mean Zayn's here" I said

"I mean as to he is in my kitchen waiting for you to come downstairs"

I got up right away fixing my hair I turn around and kiss Harris before I leave and climb out the window

The second I reach Zara's bedroom there's a nock on the door

"Hello Amerá?" Zayn said

I run over and open the door

"Oh hi Zayn, um I thought I told you that Zara would come drop me off"

"I know I know, I was just worried about you"

"Oh" that was all I could manage to say

"Are you ready to go home?" He asked me , his tone hinted more of a telling me to come then as to asking

"Okay" I say my goodbyes and walk to the car sitting in silence

Zayn never spoke a word, as did I, even if I wished to speak nothing could come out

I had spent all night nuzzled up beside another man who is not my betrothed

But something inside me told me Zayn knew, he couldn't be blind to the states and and Harris would share

He held so many secrets it was hard to know him, the real him. Zayn has always asked about my life but never portrayed his own

We finally reach the castle and I quickly walk inside rushing upstairs

I walk into the shower and lock the washroom door and turn on the hot water to relax my tense bones

I stood there, blankly

Nothing could appear in my mind, all I felt was confusion, we live in a world of cruelty and evil, what's the point if there shall be no love in it

And I did, after all these years of searching I had found love in a place I would never have found, but the painful part was that my love was on a certain amount, on a time bomb

One day Zayn will find out, and that day shall be the last of my own. The last day of my love.

But I couldn't help but ignore the fact that I'm married, so did Harris

When we were together we felt infinite. As if alone in the world and no one could change anything or ruin our perfect moment. Why couldn't I feel like that towards Zayn? Why couldn't I be normal and love the man I had vowed til death do as part

I had so many questions rising in me

Once upon a dream there was a girl named Amerá, her parents were farmers and owned land in a small village, Amerá had gone to school with all the other kids and had a best friend since kindergarden, they would sleep over and go and play in the yard all the time. And when Amerá had turned 16 she met a boy, the perfect boy, they fell madly In love and at the age 24 they vowed to one another and got married, the beautiful couple had a daughter and son and grew old raising a family 

Once upon a dream. Amerá queen of Monaco, a strong wealthy country was lost and confused feeling as if she was cursed for life, locked away, forced to a lifetime of chained behind bars, suffering for love, a dark pit inside of her, but worst of all... Never to receive children, abandoned to a lifetime of loneliness

Since the day I had found out I couldn't receive children I felt as if my heart was ripped from my chest, I couldn't ever have the feeling of holding my own child in my embrace close to hear my heartbeat while I stroke his soft skin

I told Zayn, he hugged me and kissed and told me it's okay everything will be okay

But how could it be okay... My life is cursed.

 My life is cursed

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