"Oh anak,mukhang hindi ka nag eenjoy?"
Napabuntong hininga siya bago binalingan ang ina.
"I'm good watching them" he said as he look at his siblings with their sons and daughters, having fun on the beach.
Two more months,he will be able to see and touch his son. He is so excited to meet him and carry his little fragile body in my arms. Ang kasiyahan na nararamdaman niya sa tuwing naiisip ang anak ay walang kapantay.
"You used to be like them" tumingin na rin ito sa kanyang tinatanaw "masayahin,magulo ang kaibahan nga lang,madaling mag init ang ulo mo,you always move without thinking,kaya in the end napapahamak ka o hindi kaya ay may napapahamak ka" napapikit siya,something is tagging inside him,because of his mother's words.
"That was before mom" he said as he put his arm around his mom.
"I'm glad to hear that,anak,I realized that you are already grown up,tama ang daddy mo,may sarili ka ng buhay at decisions,,it's just hard for.a mother like me to just let go of their children lalo na at inilaan namin ng ama ninyo ang lahat ng aming makakaya para sa inyong magkakapatid,I want you to settle down like your siblings but I'm also sad you will lost time for us,,so I won't push you anymore,,I'll wait and see,like your father,you are unpredictable at kahit anak kita alam kong may mga bahay na gusto mong sarilinin lamang,,all I want is for you to be happy,real happy like us,like how your siblings are,,when I saw that happiness in your eyes without smiling,doon palang ako mapapanatag ang kalooban para sayo,,we love you so much,kayo ng mga kapatid mo,,masaya kami ng ama ninyo because God have us loving and good looking children,,we feel so lucky and proud na kayo ang anak namin,,kaya anak,isa nalang ang hihilingin ko sayo mula ngayon,,be happy,,be truly happy,that's all"
"I will mom,thanks" at sabay nilang pinagmasdan ang mga kapatid at pamangkin niya.
He is pacing unconsciously,he can't settle,something is bugging him inside. Katatapos lamang niyang makausap si manang Gina. Si Janna sana ang gusto niyang makausap pero ang sabi ni Manang ay tulog na daw ito.
Ayaw naman niya itong gisingin pa dahil alam niyang kailangan nito ang sapat na pahinga. Lalo na ngayon na nalalapit na ang panganganak nito. Ang sabi ni Manang ay okay lang naman daw ito at huwag na siyang mag alala para sa mag ina niya dahil maayos ang lagay ng mga ito.
Pero sa hindi niya maipaliwanag na dahilan ay hindi siya naging kumbinsido. Mas gusto niya na makausap ito ng personal upang malaman ang lagay ng kanyang anak.
Nabubuwisit siya at wala siyang mapagbuntunan ng kanyang galit.
Una is in the shower,she was seducing him to join her but he just can't. He's not in the mood to undertake by any woman at that moment. He left their room,without telling her or leaving note to know where he might go.
"You look troubled"
Napatigil siya sa paglalakad patungo sa tabing dapat ng marinig ang tinig ng kapatid.
"Ate?" Ikinapit ng kapatid niya ang mga braso nito sa kanyang kanang braso.
"Come on,let's talk about it" nagsimula na silang maglakad patungo sa dalampasigan.
It's late night,but the surrounding is lit up with lights all around the vicinity of the resort.
Naupo sila sa buhanginan na malapit sa mahihinang alon na humahampas sa kanilang mga paa. Nakatingin sa kalangiyan ang ang kanyang ate habang siya naman at nakatanaw sa madilim na karagatan.
"What's bothering you?" Pinagmasdan niya ang kapatid.
He always wonder how she made it all this year to stick to someone she love since she was a teenager. Because they all new she just love only one man and that is her now husband. His sister Renna is all about positivity,she's more mature than her husband. When in fact Neil is way way older than his sister.
