Jealousy had over taken him. He looked really upset and stood up and walked away. I didn’t want to spoil the night so I avoided the topic and enjoyed.
The next day I woke up and looked at my phone only to see 6 missed calls from Zuhair and a message from him telling me to meet him at 2 in the afternoon. I got dressed and met him at the coffee shop where he had specified.
There was tension in the air and I took a seat across him. He had a disappointed and angry look on his face and I knew automatically that this was turning out to be a gloomy day. We placed our orders and then began talking.
Zuhair: So how’s your London boyfriend doing?
Me: His not my ‘BOYFRIEND’ his only my friend and why are you so worried its not like you ever cared about me. All you ever worry about is what car you drive and how much of things your father owns. All in all, you just think about money and material things. You think that you can get any girl that you want with the money you got.
Zuhair: You make as if you don’t have any money, but you’ve already got property and you only still going to turn 15. You think the world revolves around you. No wonder why Naadirah’s brother, Yusuf hates you. You know you just the b*tch Sabeehah told me about, I should’ve listened to her. You just a hoe! One day you with me and the next you with some other dude. You go around making trouble.
Thats when I felt the lump in my throat but swallowed it away.
Me: Don’t call me a hoe. Do you even know what it means. Oh wait, you wouldn’t you don’t give a damn about school or anything. You think your dad’s there just to help you out. Do you even know who convinced your dad to buy you the Land Rover? All you ever really think about is you and yourself. You never really even gave a damn about me, all you really cared about was taking my first kiss.
Zuhair: You know you loved the kiss as much as i did. I do give a damn about school and I get A+ in all my subjects.
Me: Yeah sure, I regretted the kiss. Two things i promised myself was that my first kiss and my virginity I would only give it up to husband. Its not like you anywhere close to husband material even in the near future. You were just one big mistake, a mistake that i will forget and overcome. I broke the first rule! Never fall in love.
I could see that Zuhair was angry, his eyes just became this darker green and I began to feel bad. I shouldn’t have said that but it just slipped out of my mouth. There was definitely some feelings left that he had for me and I managed to just rip out his broken heart from his chest. I left the coffee shop without Zuhair by my side, this was the last time Zuhair and I would ever walk into a coffee shop hand in
hand. All that could go through my mind was the fact that he called me a hoe and told me that I go around making trouble.
I reached the hotel safely when i got a message from Zuhair saying: ”I took your first kiss before you were married, and i’m damn proud of myself. I will do anything to bring you down even if it means taking away your virginity. I don’t care you just a hoe after all”
and with that message i started crying. What did I get myself into?? I needed to speak to someone and thus decided to phone Naadira.
I was so happy to speak to her. She got her phone back a few days ago and couldn’t get through to me. We spoke about the wedding and then the topic of Suhail and Zuhair came up. I began to cry and she told me that she is there for me no matter what. She also said that we’ll meet up when I get back to S.A.
*The next day*
I awakened at around 6:15 as today was the day that we leave for the airport. We all got dressed and when we arrived at the airport, I saw Suhail. We waved goodbye and agreed to keep in contact. It was a long flight and I sat next to Zuhair again but this time I had my
headphones on and decided to sleep through the entire flight. I wasn’t in the mood for him messing up my perfect day.
Home sweet home! We eventually landed at O.R Tambo international airport in Johannesburg and then went home. I was so ecstatic to be home! This was a long, tiring holiday and I was starting school two days later. I was also going to see Naadira. I really missed her!
I met up with her the next day and she had a lot to tell me. Aadil and her were getting soo much closer than before and I was happy to see her happy no matter how much I didn’t like Aadil. We had a lot to catch up on. I told her everything about Zuhair and I, and she hugged me as she knew that even though I moved on and had a smile on my face, I was hurt deep inside. Only a best friend can see the pain behind a fake smile.
A best friend is there when you have nothing and most importantly when you feel like nothing ♡
Nazain ♡
