The Part That Hates {Rin Okumura x Reader}

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I'll try to get to the Romance bits for you guys, soon! Thanks for hanging in there!

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You were falling. You closed your eyes so you wouldn't have to see the drop.

As the ground grew closer, the feeling of wanting to live grew stronger, drawing a scream for help from deep within you.

Then, everything came to a stop; the ground stopped coming at you, the wind whipping at your body fell back to that lone breeze, and you lifted your head.

"What were you thinking?!"

It was Rin. He caught you. He saved you. He stopped you.

He pulled you back into your dorm room and you fell to the floor with shaky legs.

"Why'd you do that?! If I had gotten here even a second later, you'd be a pancake on the ground!"

You exhaled a shaky breath. "Because even without me, the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the Earth would still rotate, and the seasons would still change...so why not?"

"Don't give me that bullshit," he growled, "don't think for a second that your mother would sob for weeks after you're gone, and your father wouldn't pick up extra shifts at work to avoid the loneliness he feels without you when you go home, and your siblings! Imagine how they would feel knowing their sister is gone when they love you so much it suffocates them! And god, your lover would be heartbroken, knowing that they can't find refuge in your arms, and all that's left is traces of your life, and your scent! They'd fucking miss you, okay?! So don't say shit like how the world would keep fucking spinning and days would still go on, because without you, those people would hate every second of every day they no longer have you in their arms! So get a grip! You're someone's whole world, and you don't even know it!"

You couldn't help but laugh, to which he produced a rather unhappy scowl. "None of those things apply to me. My parents are dead, I don't have any siblings, or friends, or a boyfriend."

His anger didn't fade. "That doesn't matter! What I'm trying to say is that people care about you, even when you think they don't, okay?!"

"Who? Who cares so much if one person goes missing? It's not like anyone knows me."

You felt tears burn as you tried to fight them back. You failed, and the salty drops slipped down your cheeks.

"It doesn't matter to anyone if I go missing. I have no significance!"

Rin was mentally screaming at you, and you knew it.

You didn't mean any of the words spilling from your mouth. You knew he was right, you had every reason to live.

Didn't you want to see the world one day? Make your parents proud up there in heaven?

If you died now, none of those things would come true.

"Listen," he sighed and knelt down in front of you. He pushed your hair out of your face and moved to make eye contact with your downcast head. "I know things aren't going well an' all, but you can't give up now! What will your family think?"

You looked up at him through your eyelashes and he brushed your tears away.

"Besides, I care a lot about you, 'kay?"